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4:8 Principle

2011-12-28T01:35:00.000-08:00

Philippians 4:8

New International Version (NIV)

⁸ Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

About 2 weeks has already passed from the D'encounter Camp 2011. One of the things that Pastor Nicky Raiborde shared was to eradicate negative thinking and thoughts about oneself and replace it will the real truths from the Bible. eg: I'm a wonderful creation of God instead of "I'm Fat" or "Oh look a pimple "

Then i stumble on this book called the 4:8 principle which is based on the verse above. Our whole life is guarded by our thoughts. Being humans, it's natural (due to our fallen nature) to think about the negative things. So, it's a mental discipline to think right in order to act right. I like what the author said, " If it wasn't that important to think right, apostle paul wouldn't have wrote it in the bible" .

We are created in his image so we should have the mindset of Christ. i'm speaking this to myself as i'm typing this out

Looking back this 2-3 years ,i think i battered myself the most negatively would be in the area of relationships. I kind think to much or rather too much negatively. I admit i'm insecure in this area.

Eg:
1. I don't have best or close friends. I don't recall sharing lots of secrets or deep-stuff with people. I have a good friends which i sometimes share some secrets or personal stuff, but that's just on the water. I've come to keep a close guard to myself so that people won't judge me and i keep up to the "Pastor's Son" image. Not only that, around the world that is full of gossips, i do not want to be a subject of interest behind my back. It's funny though, i've counselled or listened to many of my good friends personal life ( i don't gossip)
and advise them but no one listend to mine or rather no one is interested?

I've become a wall.....yes a ranting-wall for others. I want to rant but i can't.

2. I often feel like people are my friends because of something? I donno whether it's my personality but i find it hard to find someone who likes me the way i am. Sometimes i really do wonder and from my thoughts i beat myself up thinking that i don't have true friends .

I wonder whether my classmates are my friends because i'm "gifted' so they want to learn from me and get my answers?
I wonder whether my Kuching friends are my friends because i have a car?
I wonder whether my church acquaintances are friendly with me just because i'm a Pastor's Son?
I wonder whether i'm given leadership roles in church or responsibilities because i'm a Pastor's Son or is because i'm really good at it?
I wonder is there anyone who really knows me the way i am?

It's Hard-hitting and i often cry silently in my heart because no one ever calls me up, sms me, or talk to me with a genuine " hey, how are you? " "I really want to know how was your day? " But often it's a Can you help me with my homework? Can you drive today? Can you play the piano for me? Can you do this or can you do that? Go ahead and check my sms. At least half would be that way. I've never had an sms that said " Hey i feel something's not up with you, mind to share with me? " I kinda get jealous when my other friends do that to each other but not me. Gah, i'm trying not to be self-centered here but i really really really do want to know who are my friends that will last a lifetime, stick with me through thick and thin, bless each other, and support each other when needed. I know someone out there reading this must be like " you need a GF" but to me, if i'm still insecure, a 1000 GF wouldn't provide the calmness and peace for the relationship to last in the future. I need to know NOW.

Yes, though i'm a guy everyone deserves a little genuine touch from the heart.

3. I judge people before making friends with them. I know it's a bad habit that i need to correct but i really need to learn . I will scan the person from top to toe, their gestures, and their nature of their conversations. If it does not benefit me or is stand-offish from me i will leave or not make a point of talk to them again unless they start it. Hard to believe right? Of course i don't make it obvious. But i need to learn to overcome this as the bible says we should reach out to all and do not judge others. Sigh....

So yeah, to a start of a new year i need to find out these truths and correct my mindset so that i can receive more joy from the Lord. Wish me luck!

disclaimer: I'm still willing to drive , serve, advice, counsel and etc......Pls don't avoid me because of this post. It's just a thought and pondering about my life. Just give me a wave if you are a true friend. I may be wrong in my own thinking. Even if the rest wrongs me, I will choose not to dwell in the negativity. I move on, make new friendships and start again.

D'Encounter Camp 2011

2011-12-11T16:34:00.001-08:00

Camp is in 4 days! Can you believe it???!!!

If you haven't know about the enounter camp 2011, here's a video about it. You can still register! For those who are in Kuching of course....

Birthday

2011-10-02T07:18:00.000-07:00

Due to popular demand, i shall blog a little

I guess it's only Hannah that read my blog. Haha

Anyway, it's 3 more weeks to my exam. 3 more weeks to my homecoming. 2 more weeks to my birthday .

I guess this is it. I'm finally going to be 21. I'm a man. I'm a voter. I have assumed responsibilities

BUT sometimes i don't feel like i'm old. I still feel that i'm in high school. Sometimes, i reject responsibilities because i wanna stay young.

But i've made a mental decision to buck up, grow up and man up. Haha. I'm gonna embrace my age and feel happy rather than age sulkily we many shoulda-coulda-wouldas.

I don't think my birthday is gonna be grand(exam) as many of my friends had. I shall not be materialistic and appreciate life ; all 21 years of it. I just want three things, Jesus to fill me up the whole day and his presence that follows me. To study and excel in my tests/exams/projects/assignments. And lastly

The ticket to Perth. God you are a miracle working God. Open the doors if it's meant to be open :).

Assignments

2011-08-19T19:45:00.001-07:00

Hi everyone,

sorry for not updating my blog past two weeks. Been so busy chasing after assignments. Basic reasons for everybody i guess. Anyway, had an awesome time in cell group last night and we were discussing hard truths of the Christian faith. Have u ever experienced any? Perhaps some part in the bible , the english terms challenges your modern thinking and culture. Here are some that we were discussing about

1.Submission of women:
Colossians 3:18
Wives, be submissive to your husbands , as it is fitting in the Lord

Hard, aye? Every female species out there would be flaring in anger, calling the human rights and complaining to God. There was an aunty who said that there is one lady who was abused as she taken this verse to heart literally and now she's steering clear of the christian faith. So what does this verse actually mean?

Everything has it's balance. Of course, no way a man should treat his wife badly and abuse her as the bible did say, Husband to love their wives fully too. In that situation of love, a lady has no problem trusting and being submissive to her husband. If the husband is making wrong decision, of course, the wife should not be submissive to the decision being made. Balance is the key.

There is parental leadership and leadership "leadership". In this case, the guy is made to be the parental leader. Wives can have leadership elsewhere in the community, church and etc...

There's the old saying that men is the head and women are the necks.... LOL.... still true to today i guess.

2nd. Hating your family

Luke 14: 26 If anyone comes to me and does not hate his family, yes, even his own life, cannot be my disciple

The greatest debacle i've heard and seen in my whole life. Truly right? If anyone takes this issue to heart and literally in all sense it is wrong. As the commandment did say to love one another and to respect your parents. The verse actually means to give God a higher priority in life and when you love him so much , it almost becomes a degree of hate towards your family. Not hate "hate" as in disliking, animosity or being an enemy but rather the hate as in a lower priority compared to God. God first, family second.

If you think about it, let's say you're in a scale bar of love. A is hate, B is neutral, C is Love . Problem is, Love cannot be defined and it's endless towards infinity. Incomprehendable! So if u keep on working towards love, the neutrality of B seems to much closer to A which is almost hate. Get it?

That pretty much sums it up. So what hard truths have you ever encountered?

A new song

2011-07-30T17:08:00.000-07:00

Beauty from your Eyes

When everyone around you starts to stare
When one another starts to compare
The awkward silence of difference
Goes a long way in someone's confidence

They say beauty is in the eye's of the beholder
But what if the beholder is framed by another?
They say true beauty is skin deep
But why can't we see that; just a little peep?

Show me one's true beauty , oh Lord
Like a diamond in a rubble
Like a speck of gold in a puddle
Give me your compassion , oh Lord
To have your heart for others
Even if it goes against my purpose
Show me beauty,
Beauty from your eyes

Help me to give a smile for a mile
When a person is down for awhile
Help me to encourage others
Even if he is not my brother
Help me to love for who they are
When a person is feeling subpar
Show me beauty,
Beauty from your eyes

Beauty, Beauty from your eyes

2011-07-29T08:00:00.000-07:00

^{Hebrews 11

32-38}I could go on and on, but I've run out of time. There are so many more— Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, David, Samuel, the prophets....Through acts of faith, they toppled kingdoms, made justice work, took the promises for themselves. They were protected from lions, fires, and sword thrusts, turned disadvantage to advantage, won battles, routed alien armies. Women received their loved ones back from the dead. There were those who, under torture, refused to give in and go free, preferring something better: resurrection. Others braved abuse and whips, and, yes, chains and dungeons. We have stories of those who were stoned, sawed in two, murdered in cold blood; stories of vagrants wandering the earth in animal skins, homeless, friendless, powerless—the world didn't deserve them!—making their way as best they could on the cruel edges of the world.

^39-40Not one of these people, even though their lives of faith were exemplary, got their hands on what was promised. God had a better plan for us: that their faith and our faith would come together to make one completed whole, their lives of faith not complete apart from ours.

Faith literally defined the whole bible from start to end. The whole Christianity. The whole world!

Have faith Anders!

You wanna impact the world? Have Faith no matter what the circumstance or obstacles along the way

Laminin

2011-07-27T21:48:00.000-07:00

Jesus has the whole world in his hands, down to the very muscle cell.

2011-07-26T07:27:00.000-07:00

Hebrews 10

Sets the whole view on Christianity in the new testament. Every word spoke to me. Amen

Integrity

2011-07-26T07:18:00.000-07:00

One of the things that bug me most is when as Christians , we download Christian Albums or messages that are being sold on9 for free using the internet, p2p sharing and other methods. Is it wrong?

There are several views on it but to me, i think i would buy the original. Some say well it's God inspired, so if God doesn't "sell" his messages/songs , why should his servants too?

Well , even Jesus in the bible was given food to eat and a place to stay. Unless you give the singer food in wherever place he/she is, sponsor his/her stay, or at least help his/her liveliehood , then i say do support them by buying their God-inspired messages and songs.

Still not comfortable? Support local lah. Write your own songs and read the bible. XD

2011-07-25T07:18:00.000-07:00

Hebrews 9: 25-28

25 He doesn't do this every year as the high priests did under the old plan with blood that was not their own; 26 if that had been the case, he would have to sacrifice himself repeatedly throughout the course of history. But instead he sacrificed himself once and for all, summing up all the other sacrifices in this sacrifice of himself, the final solution of sin. 27 Everyone has to die once, then face the consequences. 28 Christ's death was also a one-time event, but it was a sacrifice that took care of sins forever. And so, when he next appears, the outcome for those eager to greet him is, precisely, salvation.

O: The scripture speaks about Jesus how he is the final high priest we would ever need and how powerful his blood is.

But instead he sacrificed himself once and for all, summing up all the other sacrifices in this sacrifice of himself, the final solution of sin.

Thank you Lord for that amazing blood.

A: Why do we need to come in guilty conscience? Rejoice, for the Lord has forgiven your sins. Come under his grace and just soak in his Love .

Why be weary? Find rest in him.
Why be sick? Find healing in him.
Why be poor? Come and find his blessings.

P: Lord , i offer my life to you once more. I just want to be under the shadow of your wings. Amen

2011-07-24T03:08:00.000-07:00

Hebrews 8.

^6-13But Jesus' priestly work far surpasses what these other priests do, since he's working from a far better plan. If the first plan—the old covenant—had worked out, a second wouldn't have been needed. But we know the first was found wanting, because God said,

Heads up! The days are coming
when I'll set up a new plan
for dealing with Israel and Judah.
I'll throw out the old plan
I set up with their ancestors
when I led them by the hand out of Egypt.
They didn't keep their part of the bargain,
so I looked away and let it go.
This new plan I'm making with Israel
isn't going to be written on paper,
isn't going to be chiseled in stone;
This time I'm writing out the plan in them,
carving it on the lining of their hearts.
I'll be their God,
they'll be my people.
They won't go to school to learn about me,
or buy a book called God in Five Easy Lessons.
They'll all get to know me firsthand,
the little and the big, the small and the great.
They'll get to know me by being kindly forgiven,
with the slate of their sins forever wiped clean.
By coming up with a new plan, a new covenant between God and his people, God put the old plan on the shelf. And there it stays, gathering dust.

The law is imprinted in our hearts BUT the old covenant if forgotten. I can't speak enough about it.

God is my Priest

2011-07-24T02:55:00.000-07:00

I love the message bible version of Hebrews chapter 7. Would you make him your priest today?

Hebrews 7

Melchizedek, Priest of God

^1-3Melchizedek was king of Salem and priest of the Highest God. He met Abraham, who was returning from "the royal massacre," and gave him his blessing. Abraham in turn gave him a tenth of the spoils. "Melchizedek" means "King of Righteousness." "Salem" means "Peace." So, he is also "King of Peace." Melchizedek towers out of the past—without record of family ties, no account of beginning or end. In this way he is like the Son of God, one huge priestly presence dominating the landscape always.

^4-7You realize just how great Melchizedek is when you see that Father Abraham gave him a tenth of the captured treasure. Priests descended from Levi are commanded by law to collect tithes from the people, even though they are all more or less equals, priests and people, having a common father in Abraham. But this man, a complete outsider, collected tithes from Abraham and blessed him, the one to whom the promises had been given. In acts of blessing, the lesser is blessed by the greater.

^8-10Or look at it this way: We pay our tithes to priests who die, but Abraham paid tithes to a priest who, the Scripture says, "lives." Ultimately you could even say that since Levi descended from Abraham, who paid tithes to Melchizedek, when we pay tithes to the priestly tribe of Levi they end up with Melchizedek.

A Permanent Priesthood

^11-14If the priesthood of Levi and Aaron, which provided the framework for the giving of the law, could really make people perfect, there wouldn't have been need for a new priesthood like that of Melchizedek. But since it didn't get the job done, there was a change of priesthood, which brought with it a radical new kind of law. There is no way of understanding this in terms of the old Levitical priesthood, which is why there is nothing in Jesus' family tree connecting him with that priestly line.

^15-19But the Melchizedek story provides a perfect analogy: Jesus, a priest like Melchizedek, not by genealogical descent but by the sheer force of resurrection life—he lives!—"priest forever in the royal order of Melchizedek." The former way of doing things, a system of commandments that never worked out the way it was supposed to, was set aside; the law brought nothing to maturity. Another way—Jesus!—a way that does work, that brings us right into the presence of God, is put in its place.

^20-22The old priesthood of Aaron perpetuated itself automatically, father to son, without explicit confirmation by God. But then God intervened and called this new, permanent priesthood into being with an added promise:

God gave his word;
he won't take it back:
"You're the permanent priest."
This makes Jesus the guarantee of a far better way between us and God—one that really works! A new covenant.

^23-25Earlier there were a lot of priests, for they died and had to be replaced. But Jesus' priesthood is permanent. He's there from now to eternity to save everyone who comes to God through him, always on the job to speak up for them.

^26-28So now we have a high priest who perfectly fits our needs: completely holy, uncompromised by sin, with authority extending as high as God's presence in heaven itself. Unlike the other high priests, he doesn't have to offer sacrifices for his own sins every day before he can get around to us and our sins. He's done it, once and for all: offered up himself as the sacrifice. The law appoints as high priests men who are never able to get the job done right. But this intervening command of God, which came later, appoints the Son, who is absolutely, eternally perfect.

It's amazing . Jesus is the priest who is interceding for us up in heavenlies. You can visualise the heaven as the tabernacle, Jesus as the priest, we the people outside the temple . What a beautiful picture isnt it?

What's more he poured out his blood for us.

I likes this statement . " If Jesus was on Earth, There would not be a permanent priesthood because like humans and he would die in vain" .So for those who wished he was not dead, there's a divine purpose in everything :)

2011-07-24T02:43:00.001-07:00

I had the weirdest dream 15 minutes ago. But i felt like something was speaking to me because i felt so much emotions and i felt like i was in the picture

" It was me coming out of this building familiar to me but i cannot remember what. The whole area was flooded. There was a car which i entered and drove off. Someone shouted my name and start chasing behind me in the midst of the rain. I though i stole a car or something but i knew that that way my car and my carkeys. I drove of nonetheless and parked somewhere else near the building. I got out and that's where i woke up"

It's very odd, feels like a nightmare but it's not. It's different. I asked God about it. I felt in my heart that the flood and rain speaks about God's blessings that are yet to come and overwhelm me. One of the physical way is the car (awesome car btw which i do not know of) . The person running from behind me means that i will set a pathway (by using the car) for others.

So, i'm to be a blessor of God's Kingdom? Hmmmm. I'm excited. :P

2011-07-22T08:00:00.000-07:00

Hebrews 6:4-8

The Message (MSG)

^4-8Once people have seen the light, gotten a taste of heaven and been part of the work of the Holy Spirit, once they've personally experienced the sheer goodness of God's Word and the powers breaking in on us—if then they turn their backs on it, washing their hands of the whole thing, well, they can't start over as if nothing happened. That's impossible. Why, they've re-crucified Jesus! They've repudiated him in public! Parched ground that soaks up the rain and then produces an abundance of carrots and corn for its gardener gets God's "Well done!" But if it produces weeds and thistles, it's more likely to get cussed out. Fields like that are burned, not harvested.

O: A strong word and revelation for today. This passage mainly continues from yesterday's reading where Paul questions one who has experience God's power, the word, and manifestations yet still sin and has wrong practices. Have we taken God's grace and mercy for us lightly? I like how the passage above describes people who does so with that paradox description.

We can experience the fire of God, We can feel that electric in the air, We can worship God with all our hearts , We can experience his intimacy, We can attend every church meeting, cell group youth group, ministries and prayer meeting. It doesn't matter if we have secret sins and disobeying God. Certainly we do not want to repudiate Jesus in public. We certainly want to be that soil that is so fertile with God's goodness.

A: Perhaps you have a secret sin ? I know i did. I caught myself lying alot of times. Not those mega huge lies but a sin is still a sin. I'm aware that i have this natural reflex to lie when i do not feel like meeting someone or attend something. I'm learning daily to stop that in my life as it isn't a good testimony. Rely on God's grace and start to change today! I certainly dont' want to take Jesus' Blood for granted anymore

P: Open my eyes to the things i've done that is displeasing in your sight. Help me to be a good testimony. Amen!

2011-07-21T09:37:00.000-07:00

Hebrews 5:13-14

The Message (MSG)

Re-Crucifying Jesus

^11-14I have a lot more to say about this, but it is hard to get it across to you since you've picked up this bad habit of not listening. By this time you ought to be teachers yourselves, yet here I find you need someone to sit down with you and go over the basics on God again, starting from square one—baby's milk, when you should have been on solid food long ago! Milk is for beginners, inexperienced in God's ways; solid food is for the mature, who have some practice in telling right from wrong.

O: Basically the whole chapter speaks about how Jesus, came into the earth as the perfect priest to atone for our sins. But towards the end of the chapter, Paul began to reprimand the church for being like babies for they need to drink milk (simple truths) , and not solid food (revelations of God's Word)

Interesting aye?

The church didn't see the death of Jesus Christ and his grace because Paul said in v.11 that they have become dull in their spiritual hearing and sluggish. In other words, they are slothful (lazy) to receive spiritual insight. Have we in some ways forget about our spiritual hearing? Have we in some ways become lazy and sluggish in achieving spiritual insight? Paul says the failure of achieveing maturity in God will prevent us from the divine will in the purpose of God .

A: To me the most important thing is to be always in tune with God's spirit and always having the desire to achieve spiritual insight/truths. If you've been having a dry period, continue to press in for more. If you have been on plateau and not moving on continue to listen and press on. Always desire for more so that we would always feed on the solid and not milk. ALWAYS GROW in HIM.

It's with solid food we would in V.15 distinguish what is morally good and evil and contrary to human law of the divine. In this world with full of corruption, lies and deception , your guard is God's word and the Holy Spirit. Stand firm. So with you, so must I!

Of course, young christians would need the milk. But not for a lifetime, there must be a growth.

P: Lord, help me to grow with you daily, day by day . Amen

2011-07-20T07:28:00.000-07:00

Hebrews 4:10-11

Amplified Bible (AMP)

¹⁰For he who has once entered [God's] rest also has ceased from [the weariness and pain] of human labors, just as God rested from those labors ^[a]peculiarly His own.

¹¹Let us therefore be zealous and exert ourselves and strive diligently to enter that rest [of God, to know and experience it for ourselves], that no one may fall or perish by the same kind of unbelief and disobedience [into which those in the wilderness fell].

Based on the commentary is speaks that those who strive and rest in Him, when their time is up , will receive eternal life , rest and the benefits like God is having now. However, I like to think it in a literal sense. That we should strive to be in his rest at all times so that when we labour on earth, it won't be a job but rather rest through work?

I donno how to explain it but taking exams for example we strive so hard by our own hands but still get a B. But often when i rely on God's grace and strive once more , i find myself getting A+ or excelling more in everything i do.

I feel that this passage is reminding me once more and not to shut Jesus out of my student life and keep him to the spiritual box. For HE is indeed interested in everything we do and unto him , let everything we do be worshipful and re-mindful of him.

Prayer: Lord, Help me to trust and rest in you more so that i will spur on and have the energy to serve you.

2011-07-18T07:48:00.000-07:00

Hebrews 2

This verse really spoke to me today.

Hebrews 2:17-18

The Message (MSG)

^16-18It's obvious, of course, that he didn't go to all this trouble for angels. It was for people like us, children of Abraham. That's why he had to enter into every detail of human life. Then, when he came before God as high priest to get rid of the people's sins, he would have already experienced it all himself—all the pain, all the testing—and would be able to help where help was needed.

O: It's indeed very touching to see that Jesus, who was made lower than all angels during this period of time in order to understand the plight of trials and temptations of us humans. Jesus could have just died in heaven for us but no ......he took a step further and experienced the world.

Isn't it interesting in biology, the blood of the infant and the mother do not mix at all? Hence, when Jesus came into Mary the baby was not carrying the trait of sin from the blood and remained PURE.

A: Sometimes we forget that God does cares for your situations/problems and in mine. Often, we complain and accuse that He, the God above, doesn't understand because we are different. If you take a look back , he was so human in extreme ways

1. Tempted with money

2. Tempted with power

3. Tempted with human basic needs - food

4. Accused and hurt verbally

5. Feared death- The shedding of blood at the Garden of Gethsemane. I wonder, what power was there in that blood at the garden:)

And the list goes on. Sometimes we need to realize, Jesus knows us more than anyone can. So , why not cast our burdens and problems to him? He has overcome sin for us and that's more than enough for me. He can bring you through the darkest moments in life, temptation and toughest trials.

P: Lord Help me to overcome the trials in this semester !

Irrational Fear

2011-07-17T17:35:00.000-07:00

Ps. Ben's prayer still resonated in my spirit that i'm not too compare myself spiritually and in my talents. But to trust in him , be faithful in serving gladly and continue to walk with him.

Reflecting about it, it's very true what God has said to me through Ps.Ben. I've been battling with a jealousy and irrational fear of being unused back in EBC. Especially in the Sat Night Service during the long holiday breaks, not once did i serve. In the English service i served only once. I was bitter and confused. Did i do something wrong? Did i hurt anyone? I even tried, mind my derogatory term "suck-up" to people so that maybe the leaders would notice me.

No avail........

It's when during my latest holiday, i expected nothing, and just let go and let God suddenly i got a message from Wilson to ask me to serve. I was really surprised.

Another thing i have to mentally stop doing is to also not compare my skills level with another. Eg: I'm bad in hearing chord progression in minor/major especially when the note is a MINOR and you have to play a MAJOR chord. It's very confusing. I practiced hard but nothing seem to change much. I will always judge another pianist's skill on stage and sometimes being a little bitter if they are better. So yeah it's really my fault.

It's when i let go and let God take over , the anointing comes, and i play smoothly and with "better hearing" .

Conclusion: Stop being kiasu and kia-God. Lol.

It's still a stage 1 on the learning curve but it's necessary to move on. The silver medal vision that Mark gave me the other day was a description of what i really felt when i'm just all Gold from God's perspective.

Don't compare
Just prepare
Don't be bitter
Be a worshipper.

2011-07-17T08:09:00.000-07:00

Proverbs 1:7

The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge,
but fools^[a] despise wisdom and instruction.

fools here means morally deficient.

³³ but whoever listens to me(wisdom of God) will live in safety
and be at ease, without fear of harm.”

Have you feared the Lord today? :)

2011-07-17T07:53:00.000-07:00

Hi all ,

I've decided to change this blog into my personal bible journal and just to write down verses and ocassionally expound on the things i've learned. I was really impacted by Ps. Ben and i figured i need to do this again and grow. :)

An issue that have been bothering or though-provoking to me is on the issue of Grace as mentioned several times by Ps. Ben. No, i'm not going to debate or write a full series about it but rather go back to the foundational truths that are found in Hebrews.

S:Hebrews Chapter 1

O: It's in this chapter that we can see the evidence of God, Jesus' position, the angels and the people of the Earth. Everything created is controlled , made , maintained and etc by God himself yet he chose Jesus to come and save us. Jesus who is worship by angels came down and died for our sins.

I shed a tear reading this passage. How many of us are willing to die for another? He has all power, all wonders , all knowledge and etc yet chose me and you. A true way to start of Hebrews with that wonderful picture of Grace. It's basic but always a great reminder to all

A: To me the best application is to always acknowledge the work of the wonderful cross and ressurection power in our lives. Often we take it for granted but we must not. I'm just in awe...I can just imagine the powerful worship of the angels up in heaven. Hallelujah!

P: Lord i pray that your reminder of your grace will always be ingrained in me. Amen

Dedicated to Daniel

2009-10-17T17:03:00.001-07:00

A close friend for nineteen years we basically grew up together in church. Always had countless sleepovers and i always remember him to having the most Dumex paraphernalia and toys (from the rakan sains magazine). It's been a long while, aye? Haha. Climbing up and down the stairs, playing computer/video games, and i remember distinctly making the Chinese tang yuen or we used to call it chinese marbles during the winter solstice festival. In primary school he went to Terengganu for about 2 years and when he came back we were pratically classmates ever since. Always sitting together making infectious jokes and the teacher had to pull us apart.

When we were with Karl Chai,time stops. Crazy inventions were scribbled all over our exercise books which made us look like "mad scientists". Oue English essays also never failed to "impress". Daniel wrote something about a Witch House and I wrote something like the Magic Bean with chocolate. Our creativity in essays always become the laughing stock for the class. Haha.

As I recall the cutest thing Daniel every done for me was, ummmmm, primay 6. I think we were all super kiasu kids.A one mark difference could lead you to have 10 rankings below in position system. I was supposedly to be ranked 16, but he used a chalk and rub out the number "one". I was fooled to be positioned 6 that time. Hahaha. We were very close friends.

Secondary school, drifted us apart. He was in Batu Lintang i studied in Green Road. Meeting him was like 2 times a week then. But we never failed to have out routine Sunday lunch and "shopping time" and exchanging nice food to buy. Haha. We somehow always end up buying ice cream. Most shop owners also thought we were brothers. So yeah, as time goes by, now we're in different part of Malaysia and soon the world. Perhaps we can only meet a few times a year. It feels kinda weird not knowing what to talk about and where any longer. But somehow i know, we'll always be the closest friends and brothers-in-christ. Have a nice birthday Daniel! I shall always remember the memories as i once always said, Elephants never forget . Hohoho~

Isn't He cute? haha. Super duper Happy Birthday Cute Daniel!

p/s: I shall always be one day older than you. Muahahaha. lol.

I wanted to blog but...

2009-10-11T06:41:00.001-07:00

........the internet killed my mood. For this past few weeks or so, the internet connection has been so bad. So many things happened and interesting events to blog about left unwritten because i officially lose the mood. I'm freaking stressed out over this. I hope the streamyx can be installed as soon as possible. I need to do work and a few projects which requires internet. Anyway, updates are i am currently studying for Statiscal Data Analysis which is like a total nerd subject ( i found out that all geologist are practically nerds) which analyzes every little data you can find. Like did you know that a judge has to use statistics to pass a judgement? it cannot exceed a 1% error when giving a costly verdict like death. EVEN THOUGH the murderer is 98.9999999999 % guilty. But because of inadequate alibis and proofs, he or she will be let go. That's why up to today many murderers are still let loose. Ok, enough about statistics. ON a light note, i'll be playing the piano for a choir. My first time playing a full score of notes or in a commoner's language, taugehs(bean sprouts) for VCF(varsity christian fellowship) choir. I prefer playing freestyle. Next week is the 10th anniversary of VCF so i have to play perfectly. Help me God! And oh oh, coming back to Kuchign on the 20th November and then off to KL on the 4th December for holidays and a petronas camp. I think that basically wraps up my updates so far. Till my blogging "chi" comes back and there is avaliable internet connection, tata for now~

Daily Devos #4

2009-08-21T01:56:00.001-07:00

Sorry for not posting up a new Devotional. Anyway, i'm back in Kuching for the Destiny Conference. That's why i didn't update as i was busy with packing.

Well, let's stop dilly-dalying , today's devotional is based on Psalms 19:1-6

Psalm 19 For the director of music. A psalm of David. 1 The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of his hands.

2 Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they display knowledge.

3 There is no speech or language where their voice is not heard. [a]

4 Their voice [b] goes out into all the earth, their words to the ends of the world. In the heavens he has pitched a tent for the sun,

5 which is like a bridegroom coming forth from his pavilion, like a champion rejoicing to run his course.

6 It rises at one end of the heavens and makes its circuit to the other; nothing is hidden from its heat.

This scripture it talking about the creations of God giving back their beauty, all glory and honour back to God, Jesus Christ! In my devotional book, it says Albert Einstein was asked one day whether he believed in God. He said we are like a child in a library filled with books. Someone must have written those books. Though he didn't believe in Jesus Christ he understood the awesomeness of God's creation and is blessed by discovering some of life's theories and examples. But i dare say, you and I are smarter than Albert Einstein for believing in Jesus. Haha. The Psalmist wrote in such a way that all creations should point back to their creator as in John 1:3 said that all things were made through Christ, and without him nothing was made that was made.

Application: I think i can sum this into a question. As we are created by God, are we pointing to the one that created us? Truly in this time, we have to be Salt and Light to the world (hello vcf).

Prayer: Lord Jesus, i thank you for creating me, the one that you dearly love and you made me perfectly the way i am. I pray that o Lord that you help me to be a creation that always point back to you, my creator. In Jesus name i pray, Amen.

Daily Devos #3

2009-08-18T06:23:00.001-07:00

I think today's chapter encourages us as a whole. Not so much of a new revelation but rather seeing the wonderful and perfect plan of God through the life of Paul. Today's Chapter is taken from Philipians 1:8-18 which speaks about Paul's imprisonment. http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?book_id=57&version=49 S for scripture: Well, the whole thing speaks to me! Observation: Basically, the verse is speaking about Paul's insight towards his imprisonment. Because of God's hands upon Paul's life even his imprisonment encourages others to spread the gospel. His love for God which took him to the extreme; willing to sacrifice even his life for God become a living testimony. I'm really honoured to be able to learnt from such a man of God from this bible, many truths and teachings in churches today are because of him. Because of him he pioneered the move among the gentiles(non-jews). Most probably, without him we might not have been christians. Sometimes it makes me wonder, other than Jesus of course, to have such impact on the world for God? I think to Paul during his time, his actions of preaching the gospel wasn't sucha an international big hoo-haa but it had made a "domino" impact for Christ Jesus. Not only that, he was still an encouragement to the world even in prison! Such passion is recommendable but i donno about myself to be willing to die a matyr's death yet. IN every way, alive or dead, free or imprisoned, Paul was really a testimony for God. Even so, it should be our desire to be the same way like Paul to spread the gospel and encourage people around us. Although it may be small actions of faith, the impact will come by the grace of God, even if it takes time. :) Application: Well, it just strengthens and encourages me to go all out for God. I'm learning every day to be more like him. Prayer: Lord Jesus, i pray lord that you strengthen me and keep me faitfhful to you always for the rest of my life. Help me to make those little steps of faith for you Lord, so that it will glorify your name and extend your kingdom. Though i may not understand what you want me to do now, or what is going around me, or why i go through trials, Lord, help me to know always that it is for your purpose and plan. Thank you Jesus. Amen.

Destiny Conference!

2009-08-17T06:57:00.001-07:00

Destiny Conference would be coming this week! It's not too late for join though. Sorry for not adverstising it earlier. It is organised by my church, Emmanuel Baptist Church and we are having international speakers leh! Kuching college students and young adults should seize this opportunity ! Here's the details. [copy & paste] from destinyconference.blogspot.com

Destiny Conference is organized the first the Young Adult and College Student Conference in Kuching at Borneo Convention Centre at Isthmus Kuching. ( For more info about the venue : http://www.bcck.com.my )

The conference exists to glorify God - encourage young people to be passionate for God and lived for His purpose. With the conference, we want to encourage the young people to rise up in the colleges and be effective in the marketplace.

Date : Aug 21/22, 2009

Venue: Borneo Convention Centre

Speakers Profiles!

Pastor Kevin Loo is the Founder and Senior Pastor of City Harvest Church, Malaysia. His God-given vision to pioneer and build a strong local church has led to the birth of City Harvest Church in Kuala Lumpur (a branch of City Harvest Church, Singapore) in 2001 with just 20 people to begin with. Within a short span of 7 years, the church has since grown to an average attendance of 1400 people. It is Kevin’s heartfelt desire to see Christians reach their fullest potential in God. His inspiring and uncompromising preaching has touched and transformed many lives not just in Malaysia but in many other countries as well. Kevin has 15 years of experience in leadership and ministry. For further information about him at City Harvest Church.

Pastor Andrew Yeo serves as one of the pastors at The City Church in Singapore. An experienced youth speaker and worship leader, Andrew shares his life story, and preaches in many churches, youth camps. He has led thousands in worship in stadiums and in major conferences in Singapore as well as in various parts of Asia. A gifted songwriter, Andrew has written songs both in English and Mandarin, and many of his songs have been translated into different languages and have impacted audiences in the Far East. He is now signed under Integrity Music Asia. Andrew is happily married to Lynette and it is their desire to see young people being transformed by the power of the Holy Spirit, and fulfilling their God-given purpose in their lives. Find out more information about him at www.andrewyeoonline.com

Generation Band from Singapore: Living by the core Generation mandate, "to transform indifferent young people into passionate lovers of God", the Generation Band is passionate and anointed. They are fully embracing the opportunity to help move young people from despair to hope, and from words to actions by bringing God's love and reality through worship. They travel internationally, bringing God's breakthrough-anointing to conferences and churches all over Singapore as well as various parts of Asia. Dedicated to the cause of Christ, it is their desire to see nations being impacted by the power of God. The Generation Band has just released their latest album entitled “LoveSong” under Integrity Music Asia.

Dr Shan Ong is a Consultant Pediatrician, specializing in Child Development (mainly in Autism, ADHD, Dyslexia) in Sydney . Together with his wife, Elizabeth, they have been actively supporting mission organizations and child-sponsorship programmes. 3 years ago, God placed a burden on their hearts to offer Dr. Shan’s medical skills (and not just charitable giving) to the poor living in developing countries, and to share with them God's Word. Since then, they have ministered in Vanuatu, Kalimantan and Bangalore. Their vision is to see Christians rise up to serve God with compassion. Dr. Shan, Elizabeth and their children worship at the vibrant Hillsongs Church City Campus Sydney.

Last, but not least, Our very own Uncle Kester!! Kester Tay is the leader of the young people in Emmanuel Baptist Church. His passion is to see young people rise up in the marketplace for God through mentoring. His God's given heart desire is to motivate young people ministries to flourish in every church in the region.

Conference Fee Fee : RM45 ( Inclusive of lunch and tea break) , For those who wanna attend the morning sessions. Night sessions/night rallies are free Early bird offer : RM40 ( Register before July 26) :( obviously it is too late. haha

Our Contact CONTACTS Any inquiries please contact us through:

Email:destinyconference@gmail.com Contact Number: 010-9672949

Daily Devos #2

2009-08-17T06:45:00.001-07:00

The Chapter of the day: Genesis 40:1-14, 23 Genesis 40:1-23 (New International Version - UK)

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Genesis%2040:1-23&version=64;

I think this is a very interesting passage about Joseph, Cupbearer, and the Baker. A common story but something just stood out.

Scripture: The verse that just pops to me in this simple chapter was verse 14 and 15.

14 But when all goes well with you, remember me and show me kindness; mention me to Pharaoh and get me out of this prison. 15 For I was forcibly carried off from the land of the Hebrews, and even here I have done nothing to deserve being put in a dungeon.

Observation: I think this verse really speaks about "seizing the opportune time" and knowing God's season. You see,as most of us know about the story about Joseph, he knew his God's given destiny since he was pretty young. Imagine the time and tribulations he faced. Sold by his own brothers, accused by Pothiphar's wife, locked in the dungeon . I would never know how it was like to be in his shoes. Furthermore, if i were in his shoes, most probably i would have given up on my God given destiny. Imagine getting kicked out from a considerably rich family and being the least of the least in the social rank; a prisoner? From young , Joseph was treated badly and like an irritating dirty rag. I'm amazed at his constant zeal and love from God even when he was "abuse" from the start. I bet he never blamed God buthe remained focus on the goal. Would a prisoner ever dream to be a ruler one day? Imagine all the odds pointing towards him? Really such patience and zeal.

Now this brings me to the next part, the seizing of opportunity. I could see how Joseph was "smart" in that situation. It may seem that he is begging but i think he was "smart"(i can't rmb the proper term) . He never forget about God's given destiny and seized that golden opportunity. If he had forgotten all about God, i bet he'll just be mopping to himself and not interpret those dreams which could have helped himself(and by God). Personally, i feel that sometimes we as God's children need to act before we receive the blessings and His plan. How can God bless you if you don't study? How can God bless you financially if you're lazy? Though God can miracously send a blessing straight from heaven, i think God prefers to shaped us to be perfect man and woman of God by putting these challenges for us. So far i have not read anything about and Man and Woman of God that had not faced trials before they peaked "in their career" . Just like Joseph, he knew his destiny so he seized that opportunity. Although the cupbearer forgotten about him, after two years, Joseph was freed because the cupbearer mentioned him to Pharoah (40:15). Hence, dont' despise small beginnings , actions of faith , and seizing the opportune time from God. I like what this author said : Patience meand awaiting God's time without doubting God's love. That is clearly what Joseph did.

Application: Overall, it is important to know and discern God's given plan and season of time. Joseph could have missed the mark if he didn't! Not only that, it is important to learn to be patient even things don't come your way . Learn to wait on God . You may not know it now but who knows? Great future awaits you! Note to self: Be more patient!

Prayer: Lord Jesus, thank you for showing this example about Joseph who is patient man. Help us to be focused on your will , vision and plan so that we will know to open the right doors and discern your directions. Helped me to wait on You and know that you have a great plan for my life and not to complain and grumble when things don't seem to come my way. Indeed , you're a great God and you will always make the way for me. Amen!

Daily Devos

2009-08-16T05:48:00.001-07:00

I feel like starting an online journal for my daily devotional time with God. What better way to store your "life bytes" than on an internet. I hope the message from God inspires and encourage you as well. I'm following the " Our daily Bread" devotional book.

Hmmm. Let's see what's in store.

Scripture of the day : Philippians 3:12-21 12Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. 15All of us who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you. 16Only let us live up to what we have already attained. 17Join with others in following my example, brothers, and take note of those who live according to the pattern we gave you. 18For, as I have often told you before and now say again even with tears, many live as enemies of the cross of Christ. 19Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach, and their glory is in their shame. Their mind is on earthly things. 20But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, 21who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body.

I always use the SOAP method when reading the bible.

S is for scripture: The scripture that spoke to me was the first verse, which is Phillipians 3:12. O is for observation: Based on that verse, somehow it rings a bell deep in my heart. "God doesn't calls the qualified, he qualifies the called" (often seen on Wilson's pm) basically wraps up the whole meaning of that verse. It's really not about how much you have, how good you are, how perfect is your will, and etc but when God calls you and you press onwards to him is what makes the difference. If God only calls the qualified, even the best preacher, priest or pope won't even be under God's will . He's interested in those who will sacrifice,have a heart for him, and pressing onwards to the goal. The verse continues on till verse 21 which can be best describe as a "race" . Whenever people think of the word "race" it's always the 100 m sprint whereby the fastest runners in the world competes for the title. However, a christian life isn't a 100 m sprint but rather a marathon. I myself think marathons are boring and i bet none of us even bother remembering the marathon race winners. Did you know that Bruce Fordyce won 9 times of the world's longest marathon in between 1981-1990 straight. Really a big wow! I think i can understand why our lives should be a marathon. It is because you need endurance and strength to complete the race. As christians, it's not so much about how fast you get to the other end but rather actually finishing the process. I don't think i ever will competet in a marathon but i know a marathon that i have to complete is this Christian life. Marathons has temptations just like what we face. Imagine all the thoughts that can come into one's mind while running. " You're too slow, you will never make it, Might as well just give up and rest in your bed, Hey that's the water station ! Go and take a rest!" All the thoughts will definitely come into your mind while you are running for hours and hours. I don't think in a 100 m race you will face those thoughts. Hence, in a Christian marathon race, we do face temptations and it is very easy to give up along the way but apostle Paul encourages to press on forward and see the goal and prize at the end. I like what Pastor Joyce Meyer asked during one of her videos. She asked " Are you willing to sacrifice 1 years of your life to reap 5 years of freedom?" How true isn't it? If we give up during the marathons, we will only feel the guilts and regrets in years to come. It is better to sacrifice the things that are witholding you from running the marathon and reap the freedom at the end. A is for Application: Overall, the main application is my life is to make sure i'm running the right track and to stick to God. How easy is for us to take shortcuts and deviate from the main track during the race. I have to rely on God and make sure i'm focus on teh goal and prize from HIM and not be discourage or tempted along the way. I must learn to see the bigger vision. P is for prayer: Lors Jesus, i thank you that God you're indeed a good God that qualifies the called. I pray that you enlarge my vision and keep me focused on you. I pray that you give me strength and focus to complete this life's marathon well and not fall into temptations along the way. Thank you God. Amen Hmmmm P/s: Isn't it strange that the bible mention about race/marathons? I wonder whether there was any major running events thousand of years ago? haha.

Updates Galore!!!

2009-08-15T07:41:00.001-07:00

So yeah, nothing much has been happening in my "oh boring semester" till this week. Firstly, my friends and I celebrated Melvin's Birthday. I think this is the first birthday i planned together with the others, mainly, Brenda, Seraphina and Debbie (and abit of Kip Loong) . It went well and it was so fun. Here's the account of the surprise party from the point of my view.

Past Ten O'Clock,Friday night,August 7th 2009 We came back from the mee stall and we suddenly thought about Melvin's Birthday. With all our minds put together , we put forth a brilliant masterpiece of ideas on what to buy and etc. But one idea prevailed! It was to sabo Melvin!

Definition of sabo according to me: Sabo, short form of sabotage. In this case we were to sabotage him by playing a prank!

We really wanted to throw a cake so badly. Suddenly , it inspired a cake involving expired mee sua, lots of whipped cream and the ever sticky cake. Modus Operandi succeeded!

2pm, Bintang Mall, August 11th 2009

We bought the main pressies which are the maroonish brown fedora, fantastical board shorts, and the phone cover which i was to blinged with the M. That very night, i finished bling-ing the phone. I must say it's not a bad job for a first-timer for me. It was done freestyle ok? i must show the picture later. hehe.

Thursday Morning-ish, Campus, August 13th 2009

We had to make a sudden change of plans as most of our friends couldn't make it on friday as they are busy with meetings. Hence, we decided to pull the prank at midnight. First thing first, The cake! Thanks to Brenda and her awesome metal steed Kenari, we went to Southern and GK to buy the magic candles and whipped cream. Onwards , we bought both the real blackforest and the to-be-set-up-as-a-fake green pandan sponge cake from Hot Cross Buns. I so "heart" their cake boxes. At 7 pm, We took 1 hour and 30 minutes to finish making the sabo-cake. Firstly, set the pandan sponge cake at the center and stuff it with expired mee sua.

Add some egg to make it stickier!

Next, Spray generous amount of whipped cream and spread it as smoothly as you can! I know it looks gross. But trust me, in the end it looks really good. And oh yah, make sure you NEVER EVER buy low fat whipped cream, u need the fat to prevent it from melting too fast (like ours :( ). Get the bood baking whipped cream with sugar in it for good measure.

Next, prepare expired peaches and slice it into equal strips. Then, arrange it neatly to form a pretty circular shape. Glaze it with the remaming peach syrup in the tin but firstly reduced over fire till it is more viscous. Crush some biscuits(we used chipsmore), and pat it around the sides of the cake. Then, do the side decors!!Be Creative!

Our final product with the real cake. Not too bad aye? MOST ppl THOUGHT IT WAS FROM THE BAKERY! High five to us. Not bad for a first try using expired goods. haha.

After that, we left for lakeside apartment at around 11.15 pm using Brenda's, Dhimas's, and Amalina's cars coz of the large number of friends going to surprise him. The plan: 1.Called Darrold to come down. Made sure Jacky(melvin's roommate and friend)prevents Melvin from coming out. 2. All the friends and classmates gathers at the ground floor ( Melvin stays at the top floor) 3. All went upstairs. Brenda holds fake cake. Called Jacky out at 12 midnight. 4. Went through the hallways. Closed the corridor lights. Jacky re-enters room and switch off lights. Melvin surprised!

EUREKA!!!!The Plan worked like a charm. Melvin was too happy that he ~~cried~~ shout for joy! We sang the b'day song and brought him to the common room/kitchen. After the song finish, Melvin blew the candles and Brenda plops the cake on Melvin's face. Shrieks of laughter and happiness pierce through the room. Hahahah. It was funny. Melvin went about hugging others with his cake-meesua-egg-cream face and shirt. Next, he went to the bathroom to change while we set-up the real cake and presents. As Melvin wasn't having his phone , we attached the blinged phone cover for him. He was really really surprised again. This time on the real cake though we placed magic candles. Those candles won't even snuff out if you blew them. WElL almost! Technically that is what was said on the box. But we found out that the candles can be blown out if you blew realy really really hard!. He took a whole 5 minutes i guess to snuff it out. Our motivation: He won't get his wishes till he blow them out. I think that was like out sabo number two. After that was the cake-cutting session and fellowship. Ended with basketball and the thunderstorm. Pics time! Credits to Seraphina! worst thing is that he ate the some of the cake. Hope he doesn't lao sai now. ahahaha

That's basically about the party. Anyway, this morning i attended the Curtin Art and Dance club. One thing led to another, and i was appointed to be Dance Instructor for line dance. It's kinda exhilirating at the same time more of a challenge. I have to introduce this dance which is quite relatively new but i have to bring the fun side to youths. I can't use slow dances anymore. Well, i'm up for it and i hope to change the dance scene in curtin. It's always hip hop/breakdance. Why can't we have a little more fun doing the funk/pop/jazz/swing etc into it. I wanna show that all people can dance. Thank you God for the opportunity. As the club is relatively newly form, they are opening up to all kind of dance lessons. I'm glad to be a part of the team. Curtin ppl, care to join? :)

Clearing the cobwebs

2009-08-03T21:12:00.000-07:00

Sorry much for not updating since it has been quite awhile in miri already. What can i say? I am darn darn bored!!!

I have only a freaking 2 subjects this semester which only encompasses my Mondays and Thursdays. I'm free for the remaining 5 days a week. Well, i've been filling up my time doing application stuff which i hope i can finish by today. Sigh.Good thing i'm free.

I think i'm gonna change my blog layout or move to wordpress(which i'm a bit reluctant). Anyway, we'll be back soon with more info about mua :)

random3.9cgpa0.o

2009-07-24T00:22:00.000-07:00

Nuff said.

Going back to Miri on Sunday. Still hesistant and reluctant to go. Confused now. More applications to settle. Sigh.

note to self: will need foundation official certs, dean's list, letter of recommendation and etc all certified and post back to Kuching b4 10th August. Busy busy week next week.

Haih.....

ON a brighter note, only 2 subjects next semester. Super dee duper free i guess. But that means higher expectation of results. Double sigh!

Spending quality time

2009-07-20T06:29:00.000-07:00

I say i think my hols are always productive. So far i've been doing a lot of volunteerism. This is what true volunteerism compared to those who do it for fame and money. Lately, we've been reviving the Green Road School Band Alumni. It is now an official support group and i'm proud to be a part of it. These 3 weeks was put to good use in part-time tutoring the form 5 band members in biology , chemistry, and add maths to brush up their basics and at least improve their upcoming results in their exams. Hopefully our efforts won't be put to waste. We also spent some time helping out the band in the recent sports day. Haha~ Sigh a few eventful weeks.

Update: I'm in a midst of confusion now. Hopefully i will know the right path. God seems to be opening new doors and i donno which to choose. Haha.

Tomorrow i'll be meeting all my ex-classmates for a mini reunion! Yippee!

Final Sem results

2009-07-09T23:35:00.000-07:00

I just want to really thank God for my results this sem. I went through alot these pass 15 weeks ++ of challenges, emotional turmoil, physical tiredness and of course constant studying. It's always tempting to compare yourself with others and i'm trying to do the less of it except in certain ways . Hence, my goal to glorify God came true and i want to offer this results to him as my thanksgiving. God was always there throughout this semester and i can't be grateful enough for it especially through my downs.

I got all HD for my subjects. I wasn't expecting that much but God certainly has HIS ways. 3 grade 9 and 3 grade 8. Thank you Jesus!

I'm not trying to brag or be proud but it's a thing i vowed to do. I didn't do it out of my own strength. God supplied me the wisdome and strength to go through this semester.

Holiday!

2009-06-27T06:35:00.001-07:00

quick thought: Did u know that holidays were actually pronounced in the heydays holy-day? I think it's because all the "off-days" were on Christian celebrations.

Tomorrow i'll be a leaving on plane to Kota Kinabalu with friends. Lots of crazy touristy stuff we're doing. Don't worry we have our local friend , Christine that would bring us around. Do pray for our safety especially we all that virus around.

By his stripes i am healed! Amen!

p/s: anyone needs any tax-free goods? we may be going to labuan.

All good things must come to an end

2009-06-25T00:46:00.000-07:00

and no, i am not talking about the exams which just ended.

I'm just so going to miss my time i have with my wildest coursemates and wonderful friends. All the memories, laughter, jokes, sad moments often shared for a whole year. As we go our separate ways to our respective courses, i wished still somehow, on the brightest star, that we still get to have this fun for a longer time.

Thank you all 2E3!

A prayer for my friends:

Lord Jesus, as the exams has ended i pray that you'll bless each one with good results so that none of us will have to be left behind. I pray that you'll guide each one in their course and they will excel tremendously. Lord, i leave their future into your hands. Mould them to be the perfect man or woman in your eyes. I pray that you'll keep us as close friends. Lord, i bless them in your name. Amen!

On a brighter note i'll be leaving for KK this Sunday for a trip with my friends. Bye all~

Happy Father's DaY

2009-06-21T04:55:00.000-07:00

I think that's the fifth time so far.

Happy Father's Day!

*back to studying*

Exam is this Tuesday! Surprisingly i am very very calm. Throughout my whole life studying i never felt that calm. Maybe because i take the exams from a very different perspective. I just wanna want to do my best and i really praying for a miracle. I hope my efforts will finally pay off.

Thank you Lord! Despite what i have learn on yet to learn for the exams , Thank you Lord for the results! I put my trust, hopes and exams into your hands.

This phrase made my day

2009-06-19T04:41:00.000-07:00

Today, was the most interesting day.

As some of you might know, i am currently stressing over my finals next week. Making short notes, revising through tons of textbook, slides, and redoing every single tutorial i've done. To top up with the stress i have been in sleep debt. Currently, forcing my body to get used to having sleep averagely of 6 hours per day so that i won't feel that bad during exam. Surprisingly, i have managed surviving past week.

Currently, i am stressed and anxious upon the reason i am not anxious for exams. I do not have the usual gut feeling. I guess what my mom said is true. The wonders of our prayers.

My goal: To glorify God's name from my results. Nothing more and nothing less. What's the point of comparing with others? After all, there is only one Anders. We're not going to be in the same course, field or work. Competitiveness is just a mere encouragement to do better. Not a benchmark! (note to self) I wanna make a good name for God and myself and retain my results. Also to be the top in programming! It's something i have knack for somehow. hehe.

Anyway back to the that special thing that happened today. I was eating with Seraphina at the usual old Yat Yat Sing cafe enjoying our meal of kuih-muih and my Hong Sau Tofu Fan . We were chatting away when suddenly our conversation was interrupted by this foreign man.

Foreigner with an accent: Are you Korean (looks at me)

Me: *blank blank* *bats eyes*

Seraphina's and my brain: AHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA! rotfl! LOL *GIGGLING* HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!

Foreigner: Because you look like some korean i know......

Me: I'm sorry, i have never met you.

Foreginer: *chuckles* Ok , sorry, Bye~

KOREAN FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!!!!!!

I LOOK A KOREAN??!!!!!

Seraphina almost fainted i think. Omigosh! If yo mistake me for a malay, indian, iban, melanau, kenyah ,kayan, and bumi or darkish-brownish races like pakistanis and fillipinos in the world ;i don't doubt it because we make mistakes as i look like them.

But korean??!!

1. I am not fair-skinned. I don't know that this is a stereotype but i think most koreans are fair.
2. I do not speak with a foreign accent.
3. I have curly hair and dark brown skin.
4. I do not speak hangeul.

The only might possibility teeny weeny similarity is our eyes. Face it, chinese, japanese and koreans come from all the same roots :China. So there a chance there.

But then again, i think my eyes are rounder and not so "sepet" until i smile a big wide grin.

Remember my post about national intergration?

http://jesuslovesuandme.blogspot.com/2008/05/national-intergration.html

Scrap that!

I AM AN INTERNATIONAL DELEGATE! Haha. From ambassador for Malaysia, i because Ambassador for Asia.

I mean why not? hehe.

ps: Maybe next they will think that i look like red indian from USA. Then, i become an ambassador for the world. Hehehe!

Authority In Christ

2009-06-14T07:08:00.000-07:00

I forgot to blog about this. Hehe.

Last Friday, i was woken up with dense smoke, very bad haze due to frequent open burning my the villagers. I think the visibility was so bad till it was slightly over 1km. Previous day API's index was almost 100.

I Hate breathing through my jacket. While i was waiting for the shuttle bus for my morning class, i suddenly remembered a teaching by Pastor William Lau about our authority in Christ. In the name of Jesus, we can command sickness to go and invite healing, do miracles and etc..So i practiced that moment of time.

So, silently i pointed to the sky (coz they were many ppl around) and i muttered under my breath a command under the name of Jesus:

" In the name of Jesus i command the clouds to collect around Desa Senadin . I command you , clouds, to condense and rain over this place. Amen"

With absolutely no idea what was going to happen next i just went ahead waiting for the bus and went on to campus. I walked to the new lecture hall and suddenly,

"crash, boom, bang, splash!"

It rained. I smiled silently to myself. In my heart i was leaping in Joy. Isn't it promising that we as christians even have command over weather, eath and etc(of course for good things lah) .. It rained really heavily during that period of time.

Then, I remembered that i didn't not bring my umbrella with me. I was like Oh no! how do i get to the main campus hall later? I don't want to get wet. However, lo and behold it stopped raining after my first class ended. God just simple knows best! What more, the skies were clear and the grass was glistening under the moist weather. I walked back with a skip in my heart. What a wonderful way to start my day.

Isn't it great to be a child of God?

Exam mode

2009-06-12T18:13:00.000-07:00

Right now there's about one more week left for me to finish revisions. Truthfullly, it's hard to concentrate past 2 weeks because of many assignments and tutorials. Still trying to manage to cover the many chapters required for this semester's revision. So many new chapters, new equations, new theories, and new techniques. Yet, my brain is not at the optimum rate for studying. I'm still trying to concentrate on the harder chapters but it's too slow.

Prov 13:4. Lazy people want much but get little, but those who work hard will prosper.

But i will still work hard! Phillipians 4:13 is my motto this semester. I'm still aiming for the HD in all subjects despite my internal marks(unseen circumstances).

Do pray for me~

Hilarious!

2009-06-02T04:04:00.000-07:00

*cues music* When you wash your body, wash your hands too! *stop cue-ing music*

This is a parody of korean pop girl band, Wondergirls of the song "Nobody but you!". So funny. It's written by mrbrownshow in conjuction with the swine flu epidemic.

enjoy~

Productive Holiday

2009-06-01T19:10:00.000-07:00

Today marks the final day of our holiday and tomorrow is back to the dusty old campus. I think i have put the past 4 days of my holidays to very good use doing things i have to do, catching up and just enjoying myself

1. Replace sleep debt:

Due to my unusual habit of always waking up at 6.30 am no matter what time i slept and class starts(let's say 12 pm), my amount of sleep i was getting isn't enough. Results were being very groggy in class especially at the late afternoons. Hence, i slept every time i felt tired during the weekends. Now i can say i feel much more energetic. Thank God for holidays!

2. Finished Programing Project:

THANK GOD IT'S DONE! Especially the calculator function!! i had to cracked my head so badly on how to do a calculator that follows the BODMAS(google it) rule. By the grace and wisdom from God, it's finally finally done!

And where do i get the inspiration from? My sleep! I have a very weird way of figuring things out. Usually, i'll just sleep with the matter in my mind. My mind would be still thinking while i am in my sleep and suddenly i'll just wake up with the solution in my mind. It's freaky i tell you!

One time during Form 3, my mind went through all the equations and suddenly i formed a mathematical formulae which teacher was going to teach 2 chapters later. FREAKY right?

Now, who says sleeping is bad? Wahahaa XD. This really proves in the bible that resting in God and HE will do the rest. hahah

3. Malam Gala Pesona

Most likely the highlight of the Petronas Scholars Gathering. But i went there for more for the food. Food was great! We had plain white fluffy thai rice, authentic singaporean fried mee hoon, beggar's chicken, roasted chicken, braised fish lip soup, sweet and sour fish, minced meat with tofu, mixed vegetables and BLACK PEPPER LAMB! I kept on going for the lamb as it was delicious. We had fun cheering here and there for the performances and took many candid shots like crazy people~ haha.

photos:

My Half-body shot:

Foundation peeps!

Me & Seraphina

Sorry for not enough pics as i dont' have a camera here. Sad aye?

I think that pretty much wraps up my hols. Unless something fun crops up today, i won't blog for now.

Tata~

Rihanna's Umbrella in hokkien

2009-05-30T22:47:00.001-07:00

Praise the Lord oh my Soul

2009-05-30T06:15:00.000-07:00

Boy, this week has a lot of happenings.

1. I lost my pendrive but it was found

I wanna thank the Lord so much. I didn't even knew i lost it till monday. I was at campus last saturday where i left my pendrive (4gb) still attached to the comp. Some good samaritan manage to get hold of it and contact me by finding out my student ID through some of my word documents. I can't help being so gratedul. ALL my assignments were in it.

However, i think studying alot these days has replace me memory. I kept on forgetting more important stuff.

I LOST my OTHER pendrive!!!!! sigh......Just when i learnt me lesson, the other one is gone. But i shall still praise the Lord because good thing i handed in all my assignments earlier from that pendrive. it was a backup pendrive but still, i hope in the Lord that the pendrive would be found again. Please pray for it!

2. Disappointments become my strength

I took the wrong side of studying this semester. Instead of beating myself i wanted so much to be at par with the rest of my classmates. In the end, i pressurised myself so much that my quizzes start dwindling down. So i tried this week to beat myself and put less pressure! Turns out i manage to get full marks i think! Wohoo~

i Must remember that this week!

3. Programming project

one whole day......half only done......sigh. I shall ask the Lord for wisdom again.

That's all i think so far. Shall update again during the Gawai Holiday.

Stars for a Day

2009-05-22T01:22:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, my teammates and I of OMG! group (it's not Oh My Goodness, it's Only Moral Group) participated in the final round of the ambitious Moral Sketch Competition 2009. Our efforts paid off from the endless rounds of discussion, practice and strategies. But i won't never and ever ever forget the ONE who kept us going all this while. At times i felt tired from the practice , i prayed. When i felt that things are not working right, i prayed. When someone is not feeling and acting right, i prayed. I guess the winning factor is not us, but God.

I would like firstly to thank God, Jesus, for everything he has done yesterday. I want to thank for the peace he has placed in me, Aaron, Debbie , Brenda and Darrold's heart during the performance yesterday. I took time yesterday to set aside some time praying for the performance. I guess that's the secret weapon during the sketch competition. The "X" factor. I also want to thank you for helping to me to be humble, it was indeed a humbling experience to learn from the moral sketch competition.

I do not know whether you guys felt it but yesterday somehow there was a boost during the sketch. Perhaps it's the confidence God placed in us. I kept muttering a prayer based on Philipians 4;13

- We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us!

I think that's my motto now to study hard and excel in everything i do.

Next i would like to thank my team member : Aaron, Debbia, Darrold and Brenda
I could never ask for another cast member. We blended well and perform perfectly. There's nothing more that i can ask for. Thanks for listening to my criticisms during the sketch and listening to me on how the sketch should go. I want to say sorry if i hurt anyone during the process.

Aaron- You certainly matured alot in acting even though it's your first time. Keep it up!
Debbie- Perfect gangster. Haha. Enough said.
Brenda- Pefect vegetable thrower. haha. I wonder what would happen to your husband next time.
Darrold- I think the experience you had before helped you become the actor that should be. No criticisms from me i think.
Nash, Melvin and Jacky- Thanks for helping us with some acting, lights and props during the sketch
Thank you all my other friends especially 2E3 class for supporting us!
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!

I hope one day we would all be able to act once more.

Somehow, today we all felt like a celebrities. People that we hardly speak come up and speak to us. Apparently, many were touched by the sketch. Some even cried. I never even thought it would be that touching. Thank you!

p.s: maybe that explained the standing ovation? Hehe XD.

Ahhhhh.........i should have gone into performing arts ho? Even my Effective communication skills lecturer said i should do publick speaking. haha. Thank you God for this talent you've given me.

Rest

2009-05-15T06:29:00.001-07:00

That one word sums it of all the things i did this week. Had assessments, moral studies sketch, and physics quiz.

About physics quiz:

It was a bummer. I felt very disappointed. I studied really hard for this quiz to pull up my marks but i failed to do so. It was not my inadequacy of my brain capacity rather the questions tested were simply too hard. One had to apply concepts from various chapters in the out-of-the-box questions. Many a times the lecturer says that reading slides and tutorial are adequate for you to pass the quiz with flying colours. However, i beg to differ. The quizzes definitely crossed the line. Too many questions are not in the tutorial exercises nor slides and has concepts which never crosses a student's mind. In addition, time is too short for proper logical thinking.

Personally, a quiz should test one's capability of understanding the particular topic and main ideas; not testing a person's IQ and mental capability to form new concepts in a frame of 30 minutes. However, i did my best. But i want to thank God for helping me in the test especially in the last toughest questions. God suddenly gave me the concept while i prayed to Him. I managed to do the questions but i substitute the wrong value. Nonetheless, i still get majority of the marks. As hard as it sounds, i should have stick to my own answers for MCQ questions. Blame it on the peer pressure. *Sorry God!*

Dear God,
Thank you for the help you assisted me for Physics. Though i know that my marks are dwindling low, i will praise you for all you've done. I pray that you'll give me the discipline and take away that disappointment of failure. Give me a spirit of determination and to be the best in everything i do. I pray for Madam Norhashimah that she'll find the heart to be kinder and set more relevant questions for physics. As much as we don't like the questions, help me to choose to love her as my lecturer. I pray that you'll bless her despite the situation. I cast my cares, fears and worries of physics to you dear Jesus. Amen!

Moral Studies Sketch:

It was awesome! Everything was smooth except that we accidentally left one scene out. However, spontaneously, we quickly adapt to cover up the missing hole so the sketch was not left hanging. It was brilliant. I am very happy that the sketch i wrote (ideas from team members of course) and co-directed was very good. Some of my friends admitted to almost shedding a tear. We wanted to stepped out of the cliche comedy sketches and do a emotional one instead. It's hard doing an emotional one because one needs to nail the emotions correctly. For this, i have to give credit to Aaron Ko as the main character which cried really well during the performance.

BECAUSE of that we made it into the FINALS!
Despite the "sighs" of other team members, i feel very proud of all of us that we were chosen . I secretly was very nervous because i've been doing sketches many times and i will feel a bit down if our group's sketch wasn't chosen. As the narrator of the sketch, i want to really thank you guys and gals in my team for working so hard. I know it's hard and tiring( because i am not acting) but thanks for putting up with my positive criticisms and correction. Thanks for doing the best you can!

I hope we can nail it once more in the finals !! Gambateh!

Rest~

2009-05-15T06:29:00.000-07:00

Short Rant

2009-05-12T16:36:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, i wasted RM 8.00 on four pieces of paper which i could print on my own. This is my short rant:

I went to the new computer class at the resource center to do some of work . Beforehand, i reloaded my account so that i can use the printer (RM 10). After an hour or so i decided to print some documents. Firstly i printed the maths tutorial questions and i waited patiently for about a minute or so. I realized that the paper isn't coming out of the printer so i went to my computer and checked again. I FOUND OUT THAT THE PRINTING OPTIONS WERE AUTOMATICALLY SET TO THE COLOUR PRINTER!!! GAH!!!!

For those who dont' know:
Non-Colour printer= Rm 0.10 per sheet
Colour Printer = RM2 per sheet

So i WASTED RM 8 for four pieces of paper which were BLACK in colour!!! I went to complain to the services whether i could get a refund. It's not fair for us users. How would we know it was sent to the colour printer? They should at least notified.

Their reason: " Oh, it's a new computer place. ADD THE PRINTER URSELF" ish!! so unprofessional.

Even if the paper did come out of the colour printer, is the black ink different than other black ink from other printers? Excuse me if i am wrong. They should have at least reloaded back my money lah! AND IT'S THEIR FAULT FOR NOT NOTIFYING US EARLIER!

BTW, to add on fire my computer cannot search for printer or change to another printer.

Sigh....i want my money back.

Autumn Leaves

2009-05-12T05:26:00.000-07:00

Autumn leaves of red and gold,
Brown , yellow and auburn bold,
Colors the dusty street nearby of grey,
Where a lonely dog passes by astray.

Patches of brown and black on green,
Rugged clothes and newspapers are seen,
Walk the old grandmother on the street,
Dragging across with her dusty old feet,

The sun extends its scorching rays,
To burn my skin i hope not; I pray,
Engulf in a burning wind of ashes,
Covering the place once known as marshes

Autumn leaves, autumn leaves,
A change in season it deceives,
When thou leaves are gonna fall?
So i know when winter is to call.

Autumn leaves, autumn leaves,
Gladness it thrive and thieves,
Season of change is what I'm waiting,
Not for dry land that are scorching.

Autumn leaves, autumn leaves,
Rain i hope, in rain i believe,
To shed the leaves once known as green,
Alas with this season of mean!

Colors so fondly adored and missed,
Sadly autumn is not to be blissed,
Autumn leaves which was once thought,
Was bushes of fire that could not be stopped.

I wrote this poem according to the scenario around Desa Senadin in Miri. Bush fires which can't be stopped at the moment are emitting smoke and ashes in the air. It seriously making many people sick. Do pray for us!

Happy Mother's Day

2009-05-10T05:29:00.000-07:00

It's a special day today,
Where Mom's celebrate in a grandeur way,
I want to thank my mom specially,
For all the love and help she did willingly

Words of advice and words of counsel,
No other mom knows more than any author can pencil,
It is her encouragement she made me who i am,
So i can be the person i should be without any shame,

Thank you Mom for the love you shown,
Food to eat and clothes to don,
Thank you for always cleaning up,
Though we should do the chores without a doubt[sorry!]

Thank you for always lending an ear,
Sharing my doubts, hurt and inner fear,
Thank you for transporting me here and there,
Whenever you can and wherever the way.

Thank you for keeping the house primp and proper,
Thank you for lending a shoulder,
Thank you for words to spur me on,
To do well in exams so i won't mourn.

Thank you for being my role model,
A perfect mom for me no one can model
Thank you for bearing with me,
Sometimes my attitude stings like a bee.

Not enough words can continue this thankfulness,
But only a prayer of gratefulness,
Mom, you're the best of the bestest,
I love you, Mummy, you're the greatest!

I hope you'll always be in wealthiest health,
I pray you'll be invisible with stately stealth,
I pray you'll be blessed in everything you do,
Because you always think of others and not who.

Thank you mummy ! I am proud of you. You're the best teacher/Mummy i ever can have!

Sincerely,
written by mua~

Ants Investation

2009-05-09T06:52:00.000-07:00

Woke today at around seven
I felt like i was in heaven
The day was bright and sunny
To campus i almost hope like a bunny

Packed my stuff before heading to school
Grabbed my jacket which felt like wool
Today we were to practice a sketch
I hope high marks that it will fetch

After a long day practising in Curtin
I feel like greeting my bed by layin'
Laid my bag down and did some unpackin'
Till saw some specks a movin'

This specks had six legs each
Made me scream with a loud --SHEESH!
This specks were black in colour
Which only spelled the word TROUBLE

I trace and trace this black line
All the way while i whined
I saw some clumps along the bin
With some food and rotten things

It wasn't there this morning i thought
Wait a minute! It wasn't the food i bought
Old tin cans, plastic wrappers and a dragonfruit
Boy, these ants are like a brute

To my dismay i see more specks
This is because i track the ants tracks
To the kettle they went marching around
Maybe they're making a rain dance-silently in sound

Up and down they went up the metal
No sweetened thing was there unlike a flower petal
Marching around to their water's death
Contaminating the water which can moist my dry breath

A cry of anger was in my heart
To boil another pot of water i cannot depart
I need water now to quench this thirst
Tears of anger feels like beginning to burst

I tried to boil my brand new pot of water
But the ants became to come like it's a new piece of wafer
Marching around it went with speed
Just to suicide again in without a moment's heed

A swear word i almost utter
I feel like getting a putter
To smash the ants to smitheerens
But i knew i can't do that as that was mean

Instead i use water to do the deed
Since it's water they wanted they did
I use it to drown them one by one
Alas my job was done!

A new pot of water i could boil
Finally the water i could "toil"
To quench this thirsty throat of mine
Everything was oh so fine

The water gave me new energy to open the door
To go outside and track some more ants, more and MORE
I ran to every spot like an amok with my shieldtox can
Spraying them and killing with my swat of hand

I manage to find the nest of ants investation
I spray every crook and cranny on that station
Making sure that they spell the fume of death
This is payback time! - i uttered under my breath

Hundreds of ants begin to fall
Running away or trying to crawl
An evil laugh begin to emanate
This is a lovely thing to participate

That's my story of ants invetation,
I hope you join my in this petition,
To kill every living ant which is a pest,
So that finally we can at peace; finally rest!

I Don't Want:

2009-04-30T18:46:00.000-07:00

1. to go back to miri this sunday
2. to go physics lab
3. to do chemistry exercises , lab, and mid-sem exam

Why can't my holiday be a holiday?

Curtin Choir Performance

2009-04-27T01:46:00.000-07:00

This is our first ever Curtin Choir performance. Not bad for a a month's practice. Too bad the mics weren't good so i couldn't pick up the guys voices. Nvm, we can improve! Just need to add more feelings. It feels very robot-ish and sharp though....

200th Post`

2009-04-26T17:32:00.001-07:00

I'm back in Kuching!!! Anyone wants to bring me out or visit me? Call Me!!

That's the end of my 200th post. Haha.

Delayed

2009-04-18T02:01:00.000-07:00

Yummy Chocolate Cake of the 10th Anniversary for us choir members.

Nazri Won!!

Crash Boom Bang!

People here and there...

The bag of goodies

Dance Dance performance

24 Seasons Drum (side view)

Jeanette Hackett

The hall at around 9 am

The Drum troupe

Christine~
Yes, i know it has been 2 weeks pass since the Curtin Open Day but here's my review anyway. Sorry for the delay.

I pretty much woke up quite early at around 7am to prepare and warm up my voice. Did the breathing technique and mouth buzzing till i was dizzy. After that i went out and waited with Brenda for the bus. Since it's the 10th anniversary, the event was quite grand. There were two main stages being set up. One in front of the Lecture theater and one in the grand new Multipurpose Hall. Brenda and I had to go to the grander one because of our opening anthems were to be done there in the choir. Most of us was excited and the hall was decorated in the grandest grandeur. All the VIP's were expected to come. As they were very important, they were also very late.

I think punctuality should be displayed in all politicians. Well, let's leave that issue alone. hehe

So most of us were practicisng the anthems and songs, warming up, and "shiok-sendiri" . We camwhored so many times while waiting. We chatted and have fun while waiting for the VVIP's to come. Our malaysian PM did not come because he was only sworn in a day before. Ahh nvm. I will still have my chance to sing at higher stages . So at about 10.30 am ++ the VVIP arrived. Our CM came, Datuk George Chan was there, and the other politicians and chancellors from Curtin Perth. We sang Negaraku and the official Australian Anthem , "Advance Australia Fair". Did you know that there are 3 national anthems for Australia? I bet you didn't. Anyway, we could be called an international choir because of many mixed nationalities. Was quite cool. I think the harmony was perfect but in the end i heard the girls drown the guys because they were nearer to the microphones. It wasn't the sensitive kinds. However, it was a great performance. Our Pro-Vice Chancellor and Dean approved our performance. Our Dean has a PHD in music. So if we're good, it must be good. I still think that Curtin Choir can advance more and be better. It's still green.

After the performance, we stayed back and listen to the various speeches and performances. I like the 24 seasons drum performance but than it lacked the stunts sadly. I wonder how would it be like for music in heaven? Would be way cool! After the whole declaration and 10th anniversary speeches and official launching of the biovalley project, we went off to the food fair . I missed the cheerleading performance by my friends!! Anyway, i walked about one round adn then helped in the Geology club stall. I had to wrapped the dim sums all by myself as my senior had to leave fo kl in the afternoon. Mind you, i didn't eat lunch or breakfast and i didn't know how i have the strength to roll the dough, cut, wrap and sell the dim sums. Good thing, Debbie was there to assist me. The dim sums were a hit especially among girls who were more weight conscious. Many of the food out there are oily and our's give a refreshing change. After we finish of wrapping all the dim sums we could i finalyl had the chance to eat. Went with my friends and set at the bench waiting for 5 o'clock to watch the Curtin Idol finals. My friend, Christine, was to perform that evening.

5 o'clock came and we went to watch the performance. In additiont to that, a gust of strong wind and rain had to come along too. The main stage could not be used anymore. however, that did not deter the performance from going on. It was held inside the lecture theater itself. Hundreds of student throng into the hall and snatch seats to watch. In the end , most of them sat on the staircase. Competition was delayed till about 5.45pm because of the technical problems. I think Curtin Idol is better thatn any Malaysian singing competition out there. THere is really a standard when the singing is done. All have the same level of techniques and sound. Highly competitive. I really love the Divine Divas. I heard that the judging was entirely based on voting. So yeah, it's a popularity vote. It's either you have the voice or you have looks and popularity. Some even vote for their friends by paying rm100 (rm1= 1 vote). Christine didn't win but the grand prize went to Divine Divas.

After that got some hair show which i won't elaborate by Alan Hair Salon. If you're really interested in hairstyles then it is for you. But for me it didn't really appeal much. Just that i learn a new techniques to try on my sis. Hehe.

Next was the announcing of the lucky draw winners. Nazri, from my class, won the grand prize of return tickets to Perth Australia. However the airport tax is not included, passport fees, accomodation , and etc... Hence, you're still using a lot of money. Anyway, Still congrats to him!

In the end, the whole Curtin Open Day ended with a Bang! Yes, really a bang coz got fireworks. Later we went and eat supper and i ate my chocolate cake. I wished i was free to roam and explore the whole Curtin and various activities. I wished i wasn't confine to the dim sum stall. Nevermind, at least i did a good deed. Got so many cool activities like WALKING ON WATER! They put like tons of starch ino the water and because it changes the tension of water, you can literally walk on water. As long you don't stand, you can float on the surface for hours. Way cool right! Maybe that was how Jesus and Peter walk on water. Hehe.

Wrapping it all up, a certain question really popped into my heart. While i was in choir practising i was doing foutte pirouttes for fun and then ocasssionally i used my highest falsetto. I BEAT the girls there! hahaha. So i was nicknamed Charlotte Church because i reminded them of her.Anyway, many of them asked me what i am doing here studying this(geology)? I should be studying music and dance somewhere else. Oh well, i also donno either. But i really feel that i wanna minor in music somewhere. I love music and i wish to play in an orchestra or solo performance next time. I must improve my piano!! Or even sing. hehe. Sing as a countertenor.

I'm currently watching the youtube symphony. Oh how i wish i was a part of them!!!

Our lovely choir:

Silver Lining in the darkest Cloud

2009-04-17T06:52:00.000-07:00

This past 1 1/2 weeks are the most whirlwind of my life since March. Many challenges and obstacles in life which shapes me to who i am today. It's hard to do this but i will praise God for everything even the bad he had let me conquer. I've learnt many new things and proper mindsets. I guess God is shaking the things i have that have top priorities in my life. Are they constant?

Disappointments i shall turn it into experience, Hurts i shall turn into my strength, Tiredness i will turn it into my endurance, conflicts i shall turn it into a better me. I shall always trust that there is a silver lining behind every dark cloud. It's a matter of choice and not just feelings.

a funny thing happened today: I was suppose to bring my lab coat for the technician briefing. I tried hunting for it in my room but to no avail. It dawned on me that i actually lost it. In addition i have my physics quiz to take care of ; so double the stress! I went to campus and hunted for the lab coat(which i misplaces 4 days ago) at the lost& found, lecture theaters, shuttle bus dropoff and etc but still it was pointless. Disappointed , i let out a desperate prayer to God to help me find it as i don't want to waster Rm80 for a new set just to wear for another 6-7 weeks[i wont' need it for degree].

I decided to put my mind off it and concentrate on my physics quiz which was 5 hours away. Initially, i wanted to go home and perhaps look for the coat, catch some winks and then study at the comfort of my bed. Somehow, i lost track of time and i felt lazy to wait for the shuttle bus. Hence, to the library it is! As we had to put our bags in the locker, the corner of my eye caught on something. I SAW MY LAB COAT! I must have misplaced it there when i was at the library last Tuesday! Haha. Thank goodness i found it. I must thank him for making me lazy at that moment. [note: i am not saying lazyness is gift from god] . However, i still did quite badly in my physics quiz because of placing a negative instead instead of a positive sign instead. You know those chain reaction questions? The one whereby u get one wrong, ur wrong answer is carried out throughout and in the end ur final answer is wrong too? Yeah, it's those kinds.

I had many opportunities to cheat as many did steal a look and erase their previous answers. Some even discussed. But i stand strong. Though i know it many not look good on my final paper. I'm glad i did it honestly. Though i make tons of mistakes i know i will not make the same again and rely on others. I shall be independent!

See, making a choice is important. You may have the nicest results and be proud of it but i shall gloat about my honesty! Haha.

Sudden Insecurity

2009-04-06T05:12:00.000-07:00

These few days i've been thinking alot. I wonder the people around me are true friends. For a long time now i hadn't have a real best friend(other than Jesus of course). I just wish there is that someone that i can share my problems with, support each other, pray with each other and etc. I kinda miss that moments i had with a certain someone. Oh God, please sent that somebody

A sudden flood of insecurity came into me just these few days. I felt lonely. Seriously! I know i have friends but i suddenly doubt their sincerity. Sometimes i wish the thought bubbles in the comic books come into life one day. I wish that i could see the people's thoughts about me . I've noticed that hardly anybody starts a conversation with me. I tried not opening my mouth at all and see whether anyone would want to talk with me for a day. About 90% of the conversations i had were either me asking them or cutting into their conversation. I wished i had an eloquency in mandarin. Everyone speaks mandarin. Though i know and understand a little, i feel left out. Really left out. Am i having true friends or am i just "tepuk sebelah tangan"? Did anywhere went wrong? Sigh, only God knows..

Sincerely,
Broken Hearted Anders....

Choir Frenzy

2009-04-01T06:51:00.000-07:00

It's just him that is coming...

None other than the Chief Minister of Sarawak.

Datuk Najib can't make it to Curtin because he is swearing in his position this Friday. Instead of Australian Prime Minister, the ambassadors are coming .

Sigh. Nvm, i will still resonate the hall with my voice.

I sucked

2009-03-28T22:32:00.000-07:00

The number one reason i wasn't singing right was the original key was tranposed 2 times lower over the computer system. I donno why but i was struggling to keep the notes. It was too low for me. Here is how badly i sucked:

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=87790352328&ref=nf

I couldn't do any dynamics because i had to sing an octave higher.

Ahh welll. ........

I lost

2009-03-28T01:53:00.000-07:00

....But i gain.

It's hard to always think positive and Praise God for all he has done in the disappointments and hard times. BUT i will choose to do so and thank him!

You may have guessed it but some may not. I just lost the Curtin Idol preliminaries round. Though do not how i exactly sounded like but i think i really did well for a first-timer. I changed the melody, pulled the notes, screech a high note and give it a low good slapping bass singing. I may have done all the right things but one thing i lack. Popularity, beauty and also experience. Well, i will definitely change and make a comeback with better vocals and perhaps look(diet!).

I sung the song "Everything" my Michael Buble ......which....also happen to be sung by my senior too. OUCH! I do not like it when someone sings the same song as i do. Haih~ His notes were right though he mess up alot of lyrics (never follow karaoke lyrics; they are always mistakes) . BUT he managed to get into the final round. His vocals are better? Nah, i think i bring the life into the song more. It feels so dangdut-ish when he sang. One striking difference would be the looks; a major factor on any singing/popularity contest. I know i did well, my vocals were almost dead perfect and manage to get my friends singing the tune too.

I know i did my best using this God-given talent! Wohhoo!

Nervous Wreck

2009-03-27T02:10:00.000-07:00

I have physics quiz, choir auditions, and Curtin Idol preliminaries tomorrow.

I shall survive and belt out my vocal skills!

By God's strength i shall do my best!

A 20 minute mind boggling test, harmonics and 30-pairs of eye staring while singing is NOT a problem!

Thank you God!!

Stepping it up a little

2009-03-20T06:49:00.000-07:00

Ever since i was little , i felt that i always meant for the stage. However, i was always the person kind at the "back" stage. Maybe in a band or so. Or maybe back-up singing. For my whole life i've always been that way , occasionally getting a glimpse of the spotlight .

I did the "craziest" thing in my whole life.

I signed up for the Curtin Idol singing competition.

People always encouraged me to sing more because they think i have a good voice. But i always shrug my shoulders and never let my voice actually shine to it's fullest potential. I refused to accept my voice; sadly. It's always singing in a group, harmonizing, and back-up singing. I love singing but that is always for God during church or in my lonely shower and room.

Well i figure that i give this a shot and actually boost my self-confidence. I hope this would be a platform for me to better myself and think positively, improve my singing skill, and slowly getting rid of the stage fright.

AND i'm talking about REAL stage fright.

Singing in a choir for the two Prime Ministers are enough. But if i manage to get into the finals(hopefully) , it's a solo i have to do right in front of BOTH OF THEM! I think i am having the nerves.

Lord, grant me the peace!

Singing with Honour

2009-03-15T01:18:00.000-07:00

Today i just came back after an intensive session of choir practice. The Curtin/VCF choir would be singing the national anthem , Australian anthem, and some other songs during the Foundation Cert Ceremony, Degree Graduation ceremony, and Curtin's 10th anniversary open day. I just found out that we are bestowed upon such an honour to sing in front of soon-to-be Malaysia's 6th Prime Minister Dato' Seri Mohd Najib bin Tun Haji Abdul Razak and Australia's Prime Minister, Kevin Rudd.

I think this is like the greatest achievement in my history of singing.

But the hardest part is singing like a Malaysian and also and Australian. I hope we would sing both songs the best we can. I hope it would touch the hearts of Australians too because we can't exactly comprehend the Australian National Anthem how the Australians perceive it.

Anyway, i am so excited!!!!

*trails of singing*

Cute right? A sister drew it. haha

I'm Proud

2009-03-12T21:24:00.001-07:00

.......of my school Green Road

Taken from eastern times:

Best ever SPM results for SMK Green Road

By Harun Jau

KUCHING: SMK Green Road had achieved its best SPM results with 50 out of its 373 candidates scored straight A in all subjects.
Of the 50, nine students scored 11A1s, 11 (10A1s), three (11A1s, 1A2), 10 (10A1s,1A2) six (9A1s,1A2), one (8A1s,1A2), one (10A1s, 2A2s), three (9A1s, 2A2s), one (8A1s, 2A2s, one (9A1s, 3A2s), one (8A1s, 3A2s), one (7A1s, 4A2s, one (6A1s, 4A2s and one (6A1s, 5A2s).
In 2007 SPM, only 25 students from the school scored straight A.
“I am very happy with the results because it is the best ever in the history of the school,” said the principal, Putit Haji Ped, yesterday.
Sze Jing Ting, 18, who scored 11A1s and an A2, said she was very satisfied with her results.
“I was not quite confident in the Chinese Language but somehow I managed to achieve A1 for it,” she said.
When asked on how she managed to do well in the exam, Jing Ting revealed that she spent between three and four hours daily on study and revision.
She added that paying attention in the class and not afraid to ask teachers questions were very important.
She attributed her success to her teachers and encouragement from her parents and friends.
The second among three siblings, Jing Ting hoped to secure a JPA scholarship to pursue further studies in medicine.
Her eldest sister is also pursuing her further studies in medicine at the International Medical University in Kuala Lumpur.
Meanwhile, Goh Han Lin, who scored 11A1s, said he was a bit surprised but happy with his results.
His ingredients for success were hard work and two to three hours of study and revision.
Like Jing Ting, Han Lin attributed his success to encouragement from teachers, parents and friends.
He planned to take up an engineering course at Swinburne University of Technology Sarawak Campus.

I'm Proud

2009-03-12T21:24:00.000-07:00

Standard of Living

2009-03-10T04:23:00.000-07:00

The standard of living in Miri is getting higher. I don't think economic recession impact is that great in a city in Miri. Everything went up 50-60 cents since the time i left Miri. No wonder the majority of mirians are living in plight and poverty. In KL you can buy a round ticket with just RM2. I have to spend Rm 5.20 just to get to city and back. Not to mention with the already-expensive-yet-increased food price. I hope Petronas would help relieve our burden here. An extra RM 100 is more that adequate to cover our needs. Please God , Help!

A whirlwind of three months

2009-03-08T18:37:00.000-07:00

Just a wonderful shout-out to all my friends, family members , church, uncle and aunties who have made my holiday a very very memorable one. Thank you!! I think this past hols was the most eventful and exciting holiday and i want to thank all directly or indirectly made it enjoyable. A sum up of my past hol:

1. Performed Line Dance cum Christmas Celebration at tHe Spring + Piano
2. Went to Penang for the first time
3. Attended the Penang prophetic conference
4. Ate authentic Penang food for the first time: Kuey Tiaw, Or Chien (oyster omellete), cendol, Hor fun, bak kut teh, pasembur, etc..BUT kuching food still rocks!
5. Visited Gurney drive for the first time
6. Waited at the wrong bus stop for 1 hour ++
7. Went to Queensbay mall and Gurney Plaza
8. Used rapid penang
9. Went to Kl
10. Stayed at a horrible condo
11. Used totally Monorail/LRT as transport to our destinations for the first time.
12. Ate the Jalan Ipoh's best Bak Kut Teh. SHIOK!!!!!!!!
13. Went to eat at the best chicken rice restaurant.
14. Went to Sunway Lagoon.
15. Attended a birthday party
16. Went to Sungei wang, KlCC, Sunway Pyramid, Blackhammer, and One Utama for shopping.
17. Went to a best restaurant in Klang
18. Attended and was blessed in the D'encounter Camp
19. Christmas Dinner at Uncle's house + formed a youth choir
20. Christmas Celebration at the Crown Square
21. Followed by many Christmas dinners.....
22. Baked cakes and cookies for CNY
23. Spring cleaning~
24. Chinese New Year!
25. Ate and drink alot
26. Visited and met old classmates and friends
27. Went for driving law and bengkel
28. Passed the Law test
29. Learned driving
30. Chap Goh Mei dinner~
31. Attended many church meetings....
32. Finished Grade 8 piano
33. Passed Driving.
34. Improved my photoshop skills
35. Redesign my blog layout
36. Packed for miri.

I think that was about all the things that came to my mind. Will add other thoughts later....

Mundane Miri

2009-03-07T17:49:00.000-08:00

I have arrived.....safely. Sigh.....

i DON'T want ....

2009-03-06T19:34:00.000-08:00

..........to go back to miri

*chants*
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*chants*

Ok ,now i have to pack. Oh the irony~

Tit and Tat

2009-03-05T22:25:00.000-08:00

This week i gotta say is one of the busiest and fastest week. As i focus on Sunday the 8th, i feel so reluctant to go back to Miri. Looking back at the past three months, i feel glad i did many things that benefited myself. It is the most fruitful holiday i must say. Nevermind folks, just another 6 weeks and i will back for my term break (yes i know it's fast) . *chants i'm just there for studying chants * Sigh~ I seriously feel like a lazy bum. So many great things are going to happen especially in EBC and i'm missing it. I wish i can be in Kuching to see the spark of revival. Yes, i know i am going totally random because i am having mixed feelings right now. At the moment i am trying to pack but i really can't do much because i'm still using the items needed. Ahh well. I think i am like the last one to arrive in Miri. This term is going to be the busiest ever with extra classes and cocurriculum. Church in Miri is going to have a Saturday night service for young people too. Hope something will happen.

Today also marks the end of my piano lessons. As some may know i've been crash coursing throughout the hols, practising really hard. Personally, i felt that i wanted to improve my skill because i felt a pull in the spirit to continue[thank you Jesus!]. Don't believe i could do it? Here's my rendition of Lowside Blues for ABRSM Grade 7. I mastered that in a week. Sorry for the bad sound quality or mistakes in the song {and my clock for ringing}. Haha.

It's been a long time since i was that determined. This time i am determine to be determined in everything i do this term (lol) . The last time i was determine was in 2007's SPM and in 2004 where i wanted to try to beat Samantha (Just 10 marks!) . But yeah, things kinda spiral down. Piano helped me to be more focus, discipline and alert. I wanna get 90+ HD all the way liao. I can DO it through the strength Christ Gives ME!

I also got Celcom Broadband to serve my student needs in Miri. Free Deconnexion wi-fi is going down. So yeah, this is like backup and very useful especialyl during project submissions and exam time.

Yes i know i have a fat chin.

I also got my driving license today! Yippee~ I passed my test last Monday. My examiner was actually sleeping in the car. SO he simply marked the form when i reached back to the institute. I only got a sad 17/20 though i did everything right. Haih~ Oh well. I got my license, so there! Going to drive today and tomorrow!. WOOhoo~

Last Tuesday was Wilson's B'day. Got him a practical gift of guitar picks and a guitar pick holder since he is always losing 'em. WHY is that buying gifts for girls is so easy? Guys things are always apparel though they really want electronics. Oh well~ It's so hard to think out of the box when buying gifts. Buy flower or plushie for your gf and they will scream or cry. Buy that for a guy and you'll get "the look" . Haha. Speaking on apparels, why is that men's clothing or fashion is so common YET expensive? It's not fair at all. Haih~

I think that pretty sums up my feelings right now.Sunday + Mundane Miri please come slower. The only thing to look forward is new shops. *sad* Yippee~

I wish i could study in Curtin Perth. Haih~

Passed without flying colours

2009-03-01T23:33:00.001-08:00

I passed Driving Test!

Albeit the excitement of overcoming the test, i don't think i would be driving around much. Sigh i have to start packing already. I am so not looking forward to this Sunday. I don't want to go back, i don't want to study, i don't want this and that. The only thing i can look forward too is the aircon. Haha.

Mundane Miri. Anyone going to Miri Jazz Festival? Me will go if me can find transport. Sigh...

Embacy in a nutshell

2009-02-25T00:29:00.000-08:00

*edited as of 10.16pm* I've edited some things that i feel was personal and i don't want to offend some people. And sorry for the grammatical mistakes and spelling. I will see to it as soon as possible.

Disclaimer: The entire content of this blog post is the expression of things went through, his experience, life, and perspective of Embacy. I pray that you will see the picture as a whole and see the good that needs polishing and the bad to be sawed off. I hope that we will see the same road and purpose as a part of Embacy. I, Anders, truly say my deepest sorry if anything offended or hurts as we know truth sometimes hurt. But I pray that it will only make us stronger and be not the cause of downfall.

Let's backtrack about 10 years ago, shall we? Ever since, I was a little primary school kid I would always see the youth, Embacy, as a fun and spiritually strong group. I still remember the kokos and jiejies as they very much often play for Sunday service and perform many entertaining skits, dramas, mime, dance performance and sign language. I remember feeling very thrilled whenever they come to Sunday school. It was fun. The time I first heard Embacy truly changed lives was when I heard of Aunty Cynthia's testimony back in 2001 during the youth night or something, where she shared on how Ian's attitude changed from naughty to good. Well, he's still a living testimony today!

Time flew and my first Embacy meeting was when I tagged my brother along in 2001 to Uncle Mervyn's house. It was packed. I don't remember I was at the historical “70+ over people stuffed in one room " but I remembered the prayer room was always needed to be open. That time I saw with my own eyes the power of God and his work. People saw visions, some said word of knowledge, and others were on the ground on fire laughing or crying. Being still young I didn't know what was happening but I was laughing and scared at that time. NO, I wasn't touched by God but it was my own physical laughter as it was funny seeing them behave that way and I was scared as some were delivered. Anyhow, time flew and before long I was about to enter my first youth camp and the first time Josh Beh started to attack me. [Oh the trauma! ha-ha] To us, 4days and 3 nights of camp was uber cool. It was an extra day of fun with my friends. However, I was serious with God. It was also the first time I cried in the presence of God. I was young but somehow I understood the importance of God and his presence.

Looking back at time, the 7 last youth camps or so, many things have happened. Friends made, friends lost, some grew stronger in the lord , some to say, sadly backslidden, some changed, some stayed the same way, some matured, some still young at heart, some stayed, some migrated. Well, you catch my drift. Thankfully, God is forever the same (and maybe Uncle Mervyn, lol). He never changes, Amen? Hopefully, the past 7 years of being a part of Embacy will give a collection of my thoughts, encouragement, disappointment, fears, and correction. I've always wanted to tell fellow friends about this but I never had the guts to do so. But well, it's time.

Phew~ Now let's get started.

Just last Sunday, Pastor Albert shared a timely message we resonated with my heart; a long time need, encouragement, and problems we have to address even for myself at times. I strongly encourage you guys/gals to hear the message. The message strongly reminded me of the vision I receive in one of the Embacy prayer meetings one Saturday night. I saw firstly cold dark waters and the storm was rising. I saw drowning people all around were crying for help and in distressed. Further up, I saw a beautiful cruise ship and we were in it worshipping the Lord. I saw some "drowning" people manage to get hold of the ship and climbed up to safety. They were embraced in warmness and practically, were saved. But wait a minute; the ship wasn't moving at all. Deeply, it was anchored to the bottom of the sea. Spreading across the seas, were drowning people yet to be saved although the boat has to the capacity to help many others. I could say after receiving the vision I was greatly disturb. I didn't know what to do or really what it meant.

I asked God for the answer and this was the impression left in my heart: For a long long time, Embacy has been worshipping the Lord and experiencing his presence and are SAVED. Some "lost" ones are managed to be saved usually by their own curiosity, effort, or closed ones and is a part of Embacy now. But sadly, they are still many others out there to be saved. For a long time, we have the mentality that presence of God draws people.
I retaliated. Isn't it true that your presence will indeed draw people? Suddenly, I felt that God was saying it is true up to a certain degree ( I may be wrong). He showed me the vision again. This time the boat was really far a way, however, the people were stil drowning and "lost" at sea. How are they gonna know or draw themselves to the boat if it was not seen? Then I understood. It was high time that Embacy should instead being retaining and individualistic, carry the presence out to the people. If the boat continues to move towards the lost, wouldn't more people get save?

That, my friends, is the very heart of the post. Let's think, are we really doing what God has called us to do? Do we have a vision and mission? Are we reaching out? Yes I know that our vision is for to be a different youth group than the rest, radical for God, and being in his presence. But is that it? Are we carrying that presence to schools, colleges or uni? Do we have a plan for the next 5 years? Are we seeing the fruits? I'm not saying that the vision is wrong. By all means, yes I would like Embacy to a radical youth group for God but are involve in other ministries as well? If you have finally come to the epiphany, our youth seems like it is only operating in the gifts and ministry of music (maybe a little of this and that) and it is entirely made up of majority of ex-children church members. True?

I Quote:
Worship to God should not only bring down the presence of God but also to stir up missions. If not, it is just will be just a form and is dead. ~Pastor Albert

Has Embacy's worship have become a form(predictable) ? I think yes and no.

That's the number one warning for us today as Pentecostal and charismatic churches. Pastor Albert also told about his life story in FGA church whereby during their earlier days they focused too much on worship that it became dead. No ministries were birth and they became righteous and they started comparing level of "righteousness" . Often they are judged on how many services or prayer meetings they attend. Not only that, many new believers were often left to fend for themselves and maybe, hopefully ,grow to be matured Christians.

Have we been there or is still there? Spend some time to think. But on my part, I have felt these impressions in my heart many times before. Firstly, I do feel that at times we tend to focus too much on worship that we forget about the people in the world. I don’t' see any ministries birthing from Embacy itself out or into missions [maybe as they venture out to older stage of life but non from Embacy itself]. I think we tend to be judgemental in our own way and maybe secretly criticise others for their "lack in the Christian faith”. I heard of comments before that we are deemed bad or "unfaithful” if we do not attend certain meetings such as the Morning Prayer on a Saturday. Truthfully, I did feel a little hurt, as in my own time I do pray for Embacy. I know sometimes as leaders we meant well; still I felt "labelled”. But we need to get our motives and thinking right. Is the prayer meeting to really pray or it's our own human demonstration and pride? Is the prayer meeting individualistic or really from the heart of Abba father? I believe that God is more than happy if we spent time with him in corporate prayer any time of the day. It really got me thinking from a wider perspective. The prayer meeting organized weekly has the biggest potential of revival. What's the point if we pray weekly just for Embacy night meetings and for God's breakthrough? I'm not saying that we shouldn't pray at all for the night meetings but we could pray for other things as well for each other, families, schools, colleges/uni, and even for the nation. If we don’t' have the heart for the nation and the society, how do we expect for the souls to come to church? We've been too individualistic and confined to the four walls of church and also maybe even to the point of being in the comfort zone.

Sensitivity:
We should not only be sensitive to the God but to one another. We should not be like the Pharisee in the temple with his judgemental prayer but rather encouraged them in the right way of praying. We have the capability of choosing the right words and said in an edifying way. I believe God doesn't scrutinize every single detail of your words to Him but rather the heart. Instead of criticizing strongly, encourage and edify them in the right way instead. This applies in other things too. Correct with love and with a right heart be it in areas of worshipping, service, and hospitality. If someone didn’t serve well, encourage him to do better rather than to cut him off. No one is higher than the other but rather we work as a team! We’re a body of Christ and each one is important. We shouldn’t be the limiting factor to any person from growing in Christ.

Hospitality and Support:

I can’t tell you how much more that this is important to every church. I guess you have to experience it to catch the vision. Yes I know in this area the issues were harped upon every meeting that we have to be more hospitable and supportive of one another. And I couldn’t agree more! Times have indeed change and the needs are changing too. If we remain the way we are (hopefully not) , the church won’t grow. Touching on the younger generation, more and more youths today are seeking for something more than just God to fill that empty hole in their hearts. They are also searching for friendship, acceptance, network, and peers alike. If the church or rather Embacy do not provide these they will find friendships somewhere else. When a newcomer comes to church, I believe first impression always last. One good example is when I went to Blessed Church in Tabuan Laru. You could see genuine love for people among them. When I entered, immediately the members began to greet me and offered me a seat. It wasn’t only the ushers that greeted first but rather every single leaders and neighbouring church members. This went on for a few minutes. Gosh, I felt such a lasting impression and never felt so welcomed! They even offered me a bottled water and went to get my details. After the worship ended, the newcomers names were mentioned and then a throng of people went on to greet me AGAIN! After the service, many came to talk to me and really find out who I was. The reason why I still remember was because of the impression they left me. I think our weakness is in this too. We tend to clique to our constant friends and the newcomers “comfort” are left to the ushers to do. I think we have to change in this area.
I also know of a few churches in KL that really cares for their people. As a result, the number of new-believers steadily grew over the past few years. Usually it starts from the leaders first. Slowly more and more began to follow and catch that “loving the people kind-of” vision! Their church of 100 grew to 600-700. That’s speaks of something. It’s simple as calling them weekly to find out how they are, praying for them, being hospitable, giving them transport and etc. All these builds up and makes them feel really belong. These things are practical but biblical. That’s what the disciples did! They went about doing bodily ministries too. It’s no wonder why they have mega-churches that time. I guess we have to learn something from the bible too.

Leadership plan & Mentality:

I think this one speaks for itself. For example if Mr.Mole or Uncle M were to be away , would there be people (other than college group or older ones) capable enough to lead the group on its own? Yes, I know we had leadership camps and meeting but these are not enough. What I mean is that we need more practical applications. There should be like a mentor-mentee relationship so that in case of any problems, Embacy would be able to be independent and stand on its own. Everyone should have responsibilities and excel in it [not only during camps]. Though there are many of us which can multitask (thank goodness!), it should be avoided so that each one can concentrate on maybe one or two God has called us. This way, doors would be open for others to handle task and learn to lead. Wilson(sorry!) seems to be like almost everything from overseer, worship leader, bible study leader, transport manager, etc....My point is that these task can be delegated and get the whole youth to be a part . Some I have heard that they feel as if they are doing nothing. We also need to be careful of often wrong ideas and mentality that has handicapped Embacy from its through potential. Eg: Why does the youth leader must be always worship leader? Why must we always sing the same songs? There are things that may have settled into a form. If it is of God, than yeah I won’t mind. But I see other strong and faithful youths before not given any chance of leadership? Why is this so? These are questions we need to ask ourselves. It is also time to avoid looking at the past because God is the God of present. God says that “he is and is to come” not “he was and was to come. God is the I AM not the I WAS. Hence thereof, it’s time that we look forward. Yes the past was glorious with the wonder working power of God but if we keep on living up to the standard of the past, we’re not moving forward. We may miss out what God wanted to do in the NOW. Another is the issue of revival. We’re always waiting for revival but if you look into the bible there is no mention of the disciples waiting for a revival. If you look in the past history of revivals, revivals are MADE not waited upon. We have to start to do something (often reaching out) and when the power of God moves, revival starts. Amen??

Cell group/Bible Study:

I was particularly disheartened when I heard there won’t be a constant bible study because of the lack of people. I think that is not justice to the faithful ones. I believe times have indeed changed. During the past, the youths were grounded in the word but never experienced the power of God. It’s no wonder when God worked many things to happen because they are in tuned with the word and they know how discern. However now with such busyness and distraction now I can say that the youth lacks the word. Why do we have to experience how hard life is without the word of God when we can train from young to be grounded in it? I feel that the absence of bible study only cuts off the “primary source of word “weekly in our situation now. When new converts come in how are they gonna learn to read the bible? Only through bible study and cell group is the answer. It should be not another teacher-student kind of session but rather a lively discussion. You may say : It’s Boring! Well, there are many different kind of materials out there. A cell group shouldn’t me mundane but can be transform into an avenue for not only being grounded in the word but also fun. Object lessons, video clips, games, stories, music, etc can all be used in a bible study. If you wanna make it exciting, it can be done! Use the tools God have given us- The BRAIN! If we as leaders are not excited and passionate for the word of God, how can u expect the others to be the same? If we are serious about cell group, than the rest would. We need a plan to make sure each individual grows in the Lord wherever he/she is at now. Often, we leave others behind to find their way in and perhaps they will grow. No, we have to reach out and train them instead and then they will learn how to be independent for their own spiritual life.

Creativity, Tools and Cooperation

I really feel blessed to be also a part of Embacy’s music team. We have something here. It can be a tool to reach out to the lost. Whenever there is a Christian concert, many pre-believers expect church music to be that way. Often, they will feel deceived if they go to Sunday service or to the traditional churches if they feel like knowing Christ. But hey! We have these “happening” music every Saturday night! But how come we’re not seeing them come in? It is because we haven’t move out. A person is able to invite some friends if he/she wants to but it takes cooperation of whole Embacy if we want to impact Kuching youths. I know it seems that Embacy is small but which other mega-youth services started big? Hillsong and Planetshakers started small as well. It just takes willing hearts, cooperativeness, and using our tools God have given us. Be creative! If God has given you sport talents, start organising games for outsiders and share Christ with them! If God has given you a talent in music, sing and compose Christian Songs! Touching a bit on music I feel that it’s high time we started composing and singing our own music. Hillsongs or Planetshakers have their songs because it’s what God gave to them in their time of need. We are different. We should be writing and singing songs for our Land and Malaysia. If God has given you talent in dance, start evangelising through Christian dances! Be it in writing, preaching, sharing, hospitality or etc...It’s time we find our synch and launch in it but also not forgetting our ultimate vision of the presence of God. Start using our gifts and talents to reach the souls. We’re all in this together as a team and not solely relying on one.

I Hope you see the same way i have seen things. I feel that God has many things in store for Embacy but firstly we have to change our heart and minds from the comfort zone we’re in. It’s time that we stop being to ourselves and begin discovering his word, purpose, and saving souls along the way!

Do you feel the wind? It’s the wind of change....

Let’s impact Kuching and let it begin with us!

It's High time

2009-02-21T22:44:00.000-08:00

I'll be writing a post later of my heartfelt desire especially for Embacy. I know speaking in person is harder but i rather pen my thoughts down. It may shake us from our comfort zone but i will also edify and encourage. Hope you'll anticipate it.

It's finall time to let the cat out of the bag.....

Piano Blues

2009-02-20T01:27:00.000-08:00

Pretissimo

Super hard and fast.....

Sigh......

Post-Planetshakers Syndrome

2009-02-13T19:59:00.001-08:00

I have something stuck in my throat feeling since thursday

Yesterday was Planetshakers Concert.

Now i have a painful-stuck-in-my-throat-sore-throat. It's not helping.

Anyway, i met up with Samuel , Hiro Nakamura, Letitia, Cordelia, and Ryner before deciding to enter. This time, i can say that the crowd was lesser than the first 3 times Planetshakers-sub-bands (?) came. Oh well, maybe they feel cheated. The heavy crowd only start coming in after about 7.45 pm . Shouts and shrieks could be heard when they saw a glimpse of either Mike Webber, Matt Garner or Henry Seeley. This reminded me again of the 1.A.m. ministry when they came to teach about worship.

Isn't it funny when we see a pop singer or famous actor and we scream and feel so honoured to meet him/her/them? Yet, we don't exactly feel the same way and do the same things to God. Here watch this video of Michael Jackson first:

Seriously just spend 10 minutes watching it.

It like the manifestations but it's not from God. People literally fall to the ground just because of a wave of hand. They are trully worshipping but sadly for the wrong person. Imagine what could happen if we have the same Passion for God!

Back to topic. I was glad Planetshakers made the right mindset that the whole thing was for God and not for them. The whole thing basically and well and the presence of God could be felt if you were in tune in the spirit. I bought a CD and went with the others to autograph it. Was glad i could get the autographs of all. You Rock Scott Lim!! It's been awhile since i last saw a keyboardist that could rock. Haha. He has lots of potential.

Anyway, tata.

The Mom and Dad Song

2009-02-13T00:08:00.000-08:00

This is a response to Kim's latest post:

Really Hilarious!

But did you know there was a DAD song?

Here it is and everyone can sing it well. LOL

Bon Voyage

2009-02-08T05:25:00.000-08:00

Embacy loses yet another musician/drummer, Caleb Tan.

So long and Bon Voyage and do your best and be blessed to be a blessing~

We will definitely look forward to be seeing you end of this year ~

God has his plans

2009-02-05T20:17:00.000-08:00

Was talking to my mom the other night about the economic recession(i know , we're geeks) and social unrest and suddenly it dawned on me that God has his wonder-working plan over my life.

Slightly less than a year ago i was asking God why didn't I get the course i wanted which is biotechnology and most of all not being able to go overseas for education(my ultimate teen dream). After working hard and also preparing very well to ace the interviews, i didn't get the government scholarhip, JPA , for biotechnology in USA. Rather, i got the geology offer from Petronas to study in Curtin, Miri. Honestly i chose that course because i didn't want to take engineering and it was nearest to biology/study of nature. However i just accepted it with my mom's wise words:

"biotechnology is your choice, for you to be a teacher is my choice, and perhaps, to be a geologist is God's plan", said my mom.

So yeah, that was what i did. Again i was wondering why i didn't get to go to USA for geology as some students manage to get that offer from Petronas. Now looking back i finally can see why God didn't let me go to USA or overseas. Because of the economic recession:

1. Government is more unwilling to accept foreigners
2. Prices of material needs/services would naturally increase- only burdening ourselves rather and making us unfocused to our studies
3. Social unrest is quite evident

Perhaps when the effect of the economic recession is over, i will be able to pursue my dreams, hopefully soon.

Petronas please send us over to Perth!!

Lack of Happenings

2009-02-04T20:40:00.000-08:00

Title says it all. Well, CNY is almost over and so far , this year's celebration is the wettest. I won't be surprised there would be a 3rd hit of flood. I wonder whether the NS recruits are doing well. Hmmm.

CNY for me was ok and i spend the 1st three days watching the Singaporean drama "The little Nyonya" which was pretty cool and heart-wrenching. However it is not like a soapy old drama. If my mom didn't cry that means it is not that sad. Probably, i had the most fun when i went out with my ex-classmates for visiting and when my curtin classmates came over for a visit.

Not much interesting happen lately though other than i started learning to drive and finally did a foutte piroutte. In the first lesson for driving i did a U-turn, 2 roundabouts, went up hill and downhill, did a full turn in a housing estate, and did many traffic lights. It wasn't a proper lesson though. More like fetching other students and then back to my own house.

Donno what's a foutte pirouttes?? Watch this:

Here is one of my favourite choir, ACM Gospel choir singing "higher & higher" :

Reunion Tags

2009-01-25T01:46:00.000-08:00

Well i would like to wish my family, friends and readers a very blessed Chinese New Year!

So i would like to finish off my tag debts to kill time so i can watch the wonderful fireworks.

About me:

RANDOM FACTS :
001. Real name: Anders Cheng
002. Nicknames: Aedes, Dangerous, Anders Jie Jie, Andre, Andersy, Dersy, Peanut butter etc...

003. Married: Nope
004. Zodiac sign: Libra
005. Male or female: Male
006. Age: Gonna be nineteen this year
007. High school: SMK Green Road Kuching
008. College: Curtin University of Technology Miri
009. Residence: Kuching/Desa Senadin
010. Hair color: Black with a tint of very dark brown if it is seen closely
011. Long or short hair: In between...haha. My hair is curly so it is longer if pulled.
012. Smoke: Nope
013. Drink: Tried it and hate it
014. Available: Yup
015. Are you a health freak: If you ask me i can tell you about the nutritions or what to do but i don't really apply it. *stares at extra tyre*
016. Weight : Secret. My doctors only know.
017. Do you have a crush?: Nah.....
018. Do you like yourself:*stares at extra tyre again* Of COURSE! Haha XD
019. Piercings: Nope
020. Tattoos: Nope
021. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRST:
022. First surgery: I can't remember whether it was my tooth or nose surgery
023: First piercing: My thumb (from a needle)
024. First best friend/s: Jesus!! Daniel , Samuel , Darrold?? I really am yet to find a true best friend in uni though.. Sigh, i don't wanna talk about it.
025. First award: Graduated from kindy?
026. First memory: Stepping into the then empty house i live in now
027. First pet: Goldfish
028. First vacation: To Brunei or was it KL? Hmmmmmm
029. First concert:Do-Re-Mi dance in kindy
030. First crush: secret

LAST:

031. Last time you went out: today to Church

032. Last time you had a good time: Church~

033. Last time you cried: d' Encounter 08 camp!

034. Last award: Best Presenter award for Curtin Orientation
035. Last trip abroad:Brunei? sad

036. Last concert:Chad Blondel i think

037. Last album you bought: set of Cd's from doulos
038. Last song you played:Jehovah's Blessing

039. Last phone call: Dad

040. Last laugh: Laughing with friends last night.

PICK ONE:

041. Summer or winter: Winter. Duh.....Free ice kacang!

042. Rainy or sunny:Rainy at night sunny in the morning

043. Britney or Christina: If they are not celebrities

044. TV or YouTube: TV

045. Oprah or Tyra: Tyra. Dont' really like Oprah

046. McD’s or KFC: McD's.

047. Soccer or tennis: Tennis! I hate soccer
048. New York or San Francisco: New York

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating: Nothing

050. Drinking : Saliva

051. Wearing: Clothes

052. I'm about to: sleep

053. Listening to:Barbie. Sister is watching it. haha.

FAVORITES :

054. Food: Anything that it not a gourd
055. Drinks: I love fruit punches and cocktails

056. Colors: I love all of them. I have seasons for colours. haha
057. Numbers: 6. I donno. I love to squiggle it. haha

YOUR FUTURE :

058. Want kids:Yeah
059. Want to get married: Yeah

060. Life: I have none . I gave it up to God. :)

061. Goals: Whatever that comes my way that God entrusts

062. Where will you live: Somewhere out there *cues music*

063. Buy a house: Maybe. I may want a condo instead. Less Job to take care of.

064. Buy a car: Yes of course

YOUR PARENTS :

066. Love your mom?: Of course

067. Love your dad?: Of course
68. Are they still together?:0.

WHICH IS BETTER?:

068. Lips or eyes: Eyes

069. Hugs or kisses: Hugs

070. Shorter or Taller: I wanna be taller

071. Lean or plump: unfortunately i wished to be Lean

072. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantically Spontaneous
073. Nice stomach or nice arms: Haaarr...? Can I have nice hair instead?

074. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive
075. Hook-ups or relationships: Relationships duh

HAVE YOU EVER :

076. Bungee-jumped: No

077. Shook hands with someone important: Yeah~

078. Kissed a stranger: No way
079. Drank bubbles: u mean bubble milk tea? THen , yes

080. Lost glasses/contacts: No

081. Ran away from home: No.Too fat. haha

082. Liked someone younger: ......dot dot dot...
083. Older: ...dot dot dot...

084. Broken someone’s heart: Parents, when i do something wrong

085. Been arrested: No

086. Turned someone down: i don't have magic

087. Cried when someone died: Grandmother & Grandad passed away a few years ago
088. Liked a friend: yea

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself: Yes

090. Miracles: Yes

091. Love at first sight: No
092. Heaven: Yes
093. Santa clause: No

094. Sex on the first date: No

095. The more you hate, the more you love: That don't work with vegetables?

096. Angels: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

097. Is there one person you want to be with you right now?: Donno

098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at a time?:no

099. Do you believe in God?: Yes!!

100. Will you tag 10 people to continue this game: No. Treat this as your ang pau. Haha.

#1 : You know you're a chinese when..

2009-01-23T06:04:00.000-08:00

You do last minute Chinese New Year shopping even for the smallest things.

Reason?

SALE MA.......

There are no discounts for early birds....

some *coughtypicalauntiescough* stay up till midnight for the sudden price crush. What to do? Petrol price and economic turndown brings out the savage-fighting-competing-selves out. You Can't help being knock or bumped by voluminous "aunties" even if you're standing still. What they want is what they get. Be careful, they may use their nails even for the things they buy.

*stares at embedded nail mark in the apples*

Shakes head......sigh.

Passed~

2009-01-22T22:13:00.000-08:00

Yes!!! I passed

Scored 47/50. Not bad for doing the test in less than 18 minutes. Haha. I was speed reading through the test.

Yay~

*skips of to the kitchen baking more cookeis*

Thursday Blues

2009-01-21T18:22:00.000-08:00

*cues blues music at the background*

I just came back from Rileks, the place where i was suppose to have my driving law and regulations test.

I DID NOT FAIL

I DID NOT PASS

o.0 Huh????? must be your expression now.

Well, my name wasn't entered into the computer system so now i have to wait for their call. Instructor called M.K.M to find out why this thing has happened. Apparently, their internet line is not working well. However, my name and documents submission for the test was handed in 2 days ago. It is entirely impossible for the clerks not to be able to submit my name into the system. If there is a will there is a way. I mean if i were them i will call the HQ department or Fax or even get the internet technician to fix the line. Now i just have to wait or change the date of test to another day which may be tomorrow or next week. I have CNY preparations ok?

Sigh

*cries* I Don't wanna study anymore T.T *cries*

This is so True!!

2009-01-20T00:37:00.000-08:00

Watch this about Facebook by one of my favourit internet youtube-r , HappySlip.

Tags would be saved for another day....hehe

Wisdom Tooth

2009-01-16T01:43:00.000-08:00

I have a partically impacted wisdom tooth that is annoying pain. If i don't disturb it , the gums won't be painful. If i ever so slightly chew my food on it or press it with my fingers , the pain/numbness starts all over again. Sigh? To extract it or not? Hopefully the tooth will emerge sooner or later. I don't waste money on x-rays and surgery.

And yeah do pray for my tooth!

Rain don't go!!

2009-01-12T05:53:00.000-08:00

Yes i kinda miss the rain at night

snuggingly hugging your bolster and cuddling to sleep

Don't get me wrong but i don't like the flood. I just wanna
it to rain at night when i sleep. Sunny days are fine with me.

Anyway, another problem is gonna crop up

And i super duper hate it when the rain stops
It is none other than the

INVASION OF THE MOSQUITOES

Yes, after the rain many mosquitoes will come and breed.
So many newgrounds to their advancement of their kingdom.

Yesterday i killed 16 annoying mosquitoes in 15 minutes in one room.

Somehow, i wish mosquitoes weren't created. Maybe before the fall of Adam and Eve they were playing Mozart and Bach? hmmm......i Wonder

* arms himself with shieldtox and ridsect*

More Pest to kill~ Tata

Pesticides for Pesty pests

2009-01-11T22:21:00.000-08:00

Yes the titles says it all.

Ever since i came back from Miri, the house is filled with crawling with irritating ants almost everywhere. I don't know where their nest is but it is gonna drive me crazy . Every nook and cranny, the ants are looking places to build their nest. Leave my laptop on the table and soon ants will try crawling into it slipping through the vents and compartments. An ant even manage to crawl into the LCD screen. Absent-mindlessly, i squashed the ant thinking that it was outside the screen. Now i have a squashed ant in the LCD and i do not know how to get it out the "preserved" dead ant.

Yesterday i open my drawer for my *coughundergarmentscough* and there they were ants marching up and down . Good thing i saw them if not i would be itching ALOT. Not only that, poison seem not to work these days. You know the China made pesticide chalk? Ants are smarter now. They know how to march around it. Ants used to stupidly cross the chalk line and they commit suicide thereafter. I suppose ants have ants school to save their lives.

We also have a four-legged robber which is much much annoying too. The cat never fails to steal food from our house and contaminate them. It bites through plastic to attack the bread and smartly know how to open food covers to get to the fish. It also eats chicken and attack the anchovies which are commonly used in our vegetables. For many years these cats have been faithfully attacking our house. Once they have baby kittens they bring them to our house to teach them how to steal. We've tried:

1. Curried fish
2. Detergent-Loaded fish (they still survive)
3. Rattan-scare scheme
4. Water spray

I think PETA will hate us alot. However, the cats never seem to go away. The best was the rattan scare scheme. As the cats always come from the back gate, my brother will hide there with a rattan in his hand. I also had a rattan while i scare the cat from the front. Once it runs to the back my brother will scare it and try to hit it with the rattan. The cat gets scared and run towards my direction again and so i hit it. This goes along for a fey more times till it spotted a drain and hid there. THe stray Cat didn't come back for another 6 months. Effective, aye?
I know it is brutal but what to do? I dont' wanna be sick. We can't close the doors and windows all the time either. How to cook like that?

Anyone , help me to eradicate these pests??

Anders Bakes again

2009-01-09T21:43:00.000-08:00

Yeah i baked again. This time it is yogurt cheese tart for my brother's birthday. I sort of merge two recipes together. Kind of sourish-sweet filling with a dense sweet dough pastry. Furthermore it is lower in fat because instead of whipped cream, a more healthful choice of yogurt was used.

Here are a couple of pics:
Please don't mind the slightly burnt crooked edges. I didn't have enough dough that's why.

I love Showstoppers!!

2009-01-04T21:35:00.000-08:00

Donno what is it?

Well Showstoppers is a popular dance competition in the States ( i think) . There are so many types of categories and variety of dances. Watching them dance sometimes makes you want to dance too.

Who says men can't dance?? I love the fouette pirouttes they do in such speed and synchronization. I would like to learn some ballet but with my body size....Oh well :p

Here are some videos:

i like this one too:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s6DpdNzuNkA

This one is called "mozart". Hilariously wonderful!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sYMwXLPRVS0&feature=related

New Year+ Randomness

2009-01-04T20:13:00.000-08:00

Whoa~ It is the New Year already. Sometimes i always have that awkward sensation that somehow God fast forwarded time without us knowing it. When i was still young i remember vividly that i always asked God to fast forward time. Most of the time i did nothing at home and i always bored. I longed for the end of the day where i could play with the neighbourhood kids or for the school holidays. Now that my wish is granted, i just wished i could eat my own words and wished for 48 hours a day instead. One more year and then i would have to embrace adulthood. Somehow i do not want to embrace the future as i am not really prepared. However i was in deep thought once more and it change the way i perceive things. Well being a youth is not forever and being an adult has a very long way to go. If we keep on stopping ourselves and longing for our youthfulness instead of embracing the future, would we leave good memories? My goal? To embrace the future, make the best of my time, and each time i look back i will remember the sweet memories i made, the goodness of the Lord, and friendships i shared. Time really do fly really fast and before long many would have been working, married . and then start a family life. Somehow it is not very fair because we get to be be youths for such a short time and then adult like almost times 4 !

My post now will be very random

I remember the words from my mom. The friends you make in university of college are usually friends for your whole life. Wise words? So do be careful which companions you make.

Recently, i find myself a very nostalgic kind of person. I really appreciate things that come my way or gifts i receive. But the ultimate problem? Letting them go. Seriously! I remember the gifts i receive for my 18th birthday. One of them was the chocolate cheesecake from Secret Recipe. I had about a quarter left and i refuse to eat it immediately. I think i almost let it "rot" for about 2 weeks before i start taking some bites. Don't worry i am still alive. Cheesecakes last very long. I feel rather embarrassed to tell this but i almost wanted to keep the cake box (with the cream and such) as a remembrance. But i had to scold myself to throw it away. See? Get my point? I think this is a very bad compulsive disorder. I have to learn to be vicious. But once the thing is gone or thrown i can get over it. Usually, i won't throw the stuff though because i won't do it. Someone else has to do the dirty work (sorry mum) XD. Another recent case would be the bear that was given away. I really feel angry . Normal people would cry or get angry over a bear right? Unless it is from their *ahem ahem* . I foresee i would keep many junks in my house next time. My parents are planning to get a new piano and i think i would grieve over my old piano. Many memories were etched into it. My happy and sad times, grieves and desperation were played on the ivory and black keys. I think i will really miss it . Most of all, skills were learnt on it and times when i worship God with it. Not only that, the piano is antique. I want a new piano but also i would like to keep the old one. I really need to overcome this problem don't I? I haven't touched my christmas chocolates at all because of this problem too!!! Someone help me!!! One of my new year's resolution would also to be overcoming this attitude. * tells himself these things are just objects, just objects, just objects etc......*

I can't believe that so many people are so particular about animals. If a cat were just to be thrown and catch i think PETA and all the organizations will come to sue you. I wonder how people can be so emotionally attached to animals and love them MORE than humans. Some say that they have emotions and spirits? FYI, I cannot and would not believe chickens will fill up the heavens. Bible never mention animals have spirits anyway. So technically, i am not commiting any murder. Gosh imagine the heavne filled with turkeys, chickens, and fishes. Must be like a zoo heaven i think. There is a statistic like there are 3 turkeys for every citizen in USA. Oh well, pok pok to you obsessive animals lovers! I think so much money can be used instead by channeling to proper organizations like for hungry people or the poor. Why animals? FYI, animals do not appreciated your work. WHo knows one day a tiger might eat you. I am not saying we must abuse animals, but just don't be so compulsive

Today also i started Grade 7 for piano. It is killing me!!! But i will try my best to finish it latest my this month. More reasons to play piano and practice really crazily. I almost practice up to 6 hours one of the day. 3 hours sitting straight at the piano perfecting score by score. I really feel like a music student.

I think will do the tag later......brain is still fuzzy. And oh i need to lose weight before CNY so that i can eat more later. Haha

Wishing you another blessed new year!

Merry Christmas...

2008-12-31T02:02:00.000-08:00

AND a Happy New Year!!

Yeah..........2009 is coming soon. I wonder what is in store??

Well, Only God knows.

Anyway i think 2008 is the most interesting year for me because i manage to do many things i really want and see the multiple blessings of God. Anyway, i'll be spending my last few hours of 2008 at the Church Combined Prayer Meeting rather than other shopping mall countdowns. It's best to pray for the future right? I mean i rather have another bountiful year than going to the mall. And also to give our time and all our thankfulness to God.

Hope to see you there?

Happy New Year and God Bless You!

Good reads and Good music Vs Wordly reads and music:

2008-12-29T17:32:00.000-08:00

A slight small neutral debate in Eu Fern's Cbox somehow stir my conscience a little. She would like me to write a blog post to clarify my thoughts and reasons . So here goes...

Background: In the world today we are basically bombarded with lots of things which can influence and change us. From New York's Bestsellers to MTV award winners so many books and music are out there. Sadly, mostly has many negative influences. Hence,i have made a stand not to read a book till i know the plot and i would read the lyrics first before listening to the music. Because i do not want to be influenced wrongly. I know it is hard to be set apart for God. Many people constantly label me as "holy" and "orang kuno (prehistoric person )" but that how it should be if we want to stand for Christ. Who cares if i don't read the latest book or know the latest world hit single? As long i know i reading and listening to good stuff , i rather stick that way.

Matthew 10:22 (New International Version)

22All men will hate you because of me, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved.

Saved mentally too, Amen??

I'm not saying that we must burn the books or march a parade to go against them(books, singer, etc..) but just don't buy/support them and give friendly advises to friends and family.

Touching On Music:

I remember one time i was bored and i was listening to random songs on the radio. One song catched my attention as the melody and rhythm was very nice. I find myself jiggling and humming to it. I'm a musical person and if a song catches my attention the tune will stick to me all day. Haflway through the song negative words were used as the lyrics. I was shocked. I quickly turned off the music.

But sadly, the melody stayed in my head and i find the words kept on repeating over and over again. I felt really bad. It took a few days for me to get rid of the song.

Songs has a tendency of getting into a subconscious mind which is a part of us we can't really control. It's like a reflex. Sometimes when you leave your radio on and you continue with your work, your subconscious mind is still working , getting the data and information from the wrong songs you hear. Maybe in a particular situation, those wrong songs will come bubbling through your head. Songs that will actually influence your action. Let say by accident you hear rock metal about anger and hatred. One day perhaps those songs will come when you are angry against someone. Somehow , music influence us lots.

Back in the D'encounter camp. Pastor Daniel about how he chose to refuse hearing worldly music because God told him too. Remember? Well it is the same way for me. I remember Psalmist Steve Harris from Australia told us before; " If music can draw us to worship God , create a positive presence of the Holy Spirit, show's God's glory and change us, How much more negtive wordly music can do?" . We worship God through music. Apparently, the world worships themselves and the devil. So who are you tuning into?

Proverbs 4:23 (New International Version)

23 Above all else, guard your heart,
for it is the wellspring of life.

Touching On reading:

Many books recently are getting attention such as the old Harry Potter series, The Da Vinci Code, and especially Stephanie Meyer's vampire collection. The same it is for music and the same it shall be for books. What you read and see shall be forever imprinted into your mind(subconscious) . If you always read books about violence, perhaps one day you'll react violently. If you always read good-mannered books, it will be reflected in your personality. True?

But it is fiction?

Well yes i know the story books are fiction. Bottomline is what are the good values, lessons, and teachings we can learn? None mostly. Like Harry Potter and Stephanie Meyer's books are mostly researched on witchcraft and satanic rituals. These are non-fiction at all. The philosopher's stone is a tool to call out to the devil and sabbatical goat. Sexual practices in Stephanie' Meyer's books are deeply rooted in Satanic Churches. Why read about them? Why support these practices? Why? Why? Why?

Statistically, many children are being influenced . Ambitions to be a witch or wizard, to fall in love with a vampire and etc.......are not so uncommon anymore. Parents are shocked to find these words of wrong longing of their children desires. We're living in near-end times and Satan is trying it's best to make itself look good. Since when devils/vampires are good? since when withcraft is good? tell me. The bible speaks strongly against all these practices. Though the book is fiction, the CONTENT IS REAL. For Da Vinci Code, it is just a book of lies. Why read something that doubts your faith ? Read the bible which actually strengthens your faith.

By now, i expect some of you would be feeling uneasy. But just think of a moment, how much time have we wasted conforming to the world?

Romans 12:2 (New International Version)

2Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Let's see the bigger picture , shall we?

Your support to the worldy wrong music and books will:

1. Bring support to the authors/singers. Your money invested in their stuff are only encouraging them to make more wrong stuff. Make sense?

2. Increase Statistics. 999,999 people and 1 million hits is very different. As i said earlier, it will make the author/singers think that you want more of these songs.

3.Close the gap between Christians and Pre-Believers. Hey, if Christians are also hearing and reading this stuff "for fun" , No different than us pre-believers right??

4. Weak generation from God. Wrong ideas , values , and teachings will only be mixed up with Christian teachings. Bible mentions that new wine cannot be poured into old wine skins. If we're still in our old selves, how can we learn to be more like God if we're confuse and doubtful?

5. Cause more to be influnce wrongly. More cash means more means of wrong materials to be distributed around to other countries or even translated.

I will write more if i can think of more impacts it can bring XD.

Overall i am not saying i am Holy and you should be so restrictive in any way. Tryin my best to be not a pharisee ok? I mean we do make mistakes occasionally but we should be more careful. Some books and songs may be good to hear (as in lyrics are good too) but sometimes the intentions of the authors or singers may be wrong too. For example, Chicken soup for the soul by Jack Canfield? I know it is a good book but Jack Canfield tributes to his success to the New Age Thinking Movement whereby they think themselves as humans are God and they don't believe in Him (Jesus). So do be wary! The money Jack Canfield receieves will be used to slowly add teachings of the New Age movement into his books and also to "bring the good news around". Apparently, some of the stories you read before are stories from shamans and Dalai Lama. They call themselves Christians and do have a Pastor but the teachings are not from Christ. So it would be best to check about the author's or singer's life too.

I know i didn't talk about television and computer games . I have resources and materials which i can use to bombard you with all the statistics and psychology reports. But nah, i hope you can understand. Same for television and computer games. Not good= Don't play or watch.

So are you willing to Stand For God??

So what should we do? Just don't support, read, listen, or buy. Simple enough. Save your money for another day or good reading materials and songs.

Finally, brothers, whatever is true,
whatever is noble, whatever is right,
whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable
- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy -
think about these things.

Phil 4:8 NIV

I think i finally get my thoughts through. Please , no more debates until we see face to face? I hate typing debates. Haha. XD

P/s: I think most of America will hate me now, Oh well~

I Remembered...

2008-12-29T17:11:00.000-08:00

It's the time again where most of the 15 years old are anticipating their PMR results.

Anyway when the exam results were released i remembered i was swimming. Not in swimming competition , silly! But in the very pools of Santubong Resort. Haha. I was with other seniors at our Embacy Youth Leadership camp. It is a time whereby we leaders can too receive from God as most of us are drained out during the camp.

I remember that those who gets straight A's were too be thrown overboard by using Mark's Surf Board. Thank God i got Straight A's . However i didn't get thrown overboard. The reason why?

I was overweight and Mark poor board was only Styrofoam.

I wish all the best to youths and friends i know that are getting their results today. May God comfort you in whatever results you have. Remember, He is too good to be unkind , He is too wise to be mistaken. When you don't see his plan, When you can't trace his hand, TRUST his Heart!!

Like me i didn't get the results i wanted for SPM but God still broke a miracle for me. Trust Him Always~

Plushy Mushy

2008-12-26T17:33:00.000-08:00

I am having very mixed up feelings right now. Yes it is the case of the plushy mushy attack. Just like Pastor Daniel's "chao chim tao" and his wife's "fei fei tut tut" my hard-earned teddy bear appreciation gift is gone. During my form 4 till form 5 as a prefect i had gone through so much problems even till the extent of sweeping other's vomit and all kinds of gruesome stuff. Nominated as the prefect of the month i received this teddy bear in blue scarf with a cute letter "b" on its chest. I always place it in my bedroom and it reminds me of my memories as a prefect.

NOW IT IS GONE!

As i am away most of the time in Curtin , Miri , i hardly remember exactly how the bear looks like. Recently, my family and I attended a christmas dinner. There was a gift exchange. My Sister took my bear as a gift exchange! Inititally i was saying it really looks like my bear in bedroom and was making sure that she didn't took my bear. She said " No no no no no it is an aunty that gave it to me and etc" . Now the bear is with some old aunty as i remembered vividly. I wished that i could reverse time and just took the bear back. Now it is all gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*cries softly*

Merry Christmas~

2008-12-24T22:49:00.000-08:00

Today is once again to remember our Saviour's Birth , Jesus Christ. Once again our church had a special meeting at Thien Court , Crown Square. For the pass three days, me, Wilson, and Samuel have been working together the youths to form a choir. We ( actually I) didn't choose a christmas carols but instead we chose a hymn medley. To cater for older folks i guess. When it is our turn to perform it started a bit rocky and ended rockier, however, overall it was ok. At least we tenors didn't overpower.

I was planning to write a longer post but i am too tired. I fell sick today and kept on feeling like fainting. To Kat, i think this is what it is meant by a blue christmas.

Anyways, Merry Christmas once again!

Praise God!

2008-12-12T13:34:00.000-08:00

I can't believe i am blogging this at 5.37 am. That's the thing i don't like staying at hotels. Hope i can muster enough energy for the upcoming youth camp.

That isn't what this post is about thought. Recently, i've been trying to log into Curtin website to access my results. However, because my password is too long i had to reset it which only enabled me to access it yesterday. I'm so excited as i scored 80++ and above for all foundation subjects which means i am a High Distinction Student! Hopefully i managed to enter the Dean's List.

Foundation Engineering COURSE CODE 155E
Unit	Final Mark	Grade
FP-040 Engineering Mathematics I	86	8
FP-052 v1 Research and Writing Skills 061	82	8
FP-050 Physics I	98	9
FP-045 Programming in C++ (I)	98	9
MPW 2133 Malaysian Studies	82	8
FP-033 Chemistry I	84	8
Course Status: Good Standing

I would like first of all to Thank God or rather Jesus for helping me throughout my starting of life in Curtin. Honestly, i find it very hard to study before exams as it is such a breakwaway from the Malaysian study system. Being one of the lowest for internal marks among peers, i have to work twice as harder to achieve 80++. Thank God i made it! The days before the exam of constant studying paid off. I also want to thank our gracious Father Jesus for giving me the calmness and peace during the exams so that i can do my best. Those who knows me well, i can do many mistakes under a panicky mode.

That's all. Now to try going back to sleep!

Landed Safely at KLIA

2008-12-09T21:19:00.000-08:00

Yay finally arrived at LCCT-KLIA. I don't like the LCCT. You can tell that they didn't really planned out the building construction and quality that well. Anyway i am now stuck here after having my costly meal with my family at McDonalds. You know why? Our plan was delayed for an extra 1 hour and 10 minutes.

Lesser time means more stress+hurry for us to reach the hotel and church in time for the Prophetic Conference.

Haha anyways i am so nervous of my foundation first sem results. I hope i can get HD for most of the subjects of even a D . It's hard changing the mind set that A is bad (it means Absent) and D is actually very good (distinction). Oh well. The results i heard will only be released by 5 pm.

Let's hope that i have a wi-fi connection to actually check it.
*Crosses Fingers*

Tata till i can get an internet connection.

Slightly Insomniac

2008-12-08T13:54:00.000-08:00

Lately, i'm beginning to have my bed time slowly decreasing. I do not have a clue why i am getting still active at night. Can only sleep after 1++ . Anyways, i am a declaring a hiatus from the 10th-20th December because i would be away to Penang, KL and back for a youth camp. Anyone still interested in the camp? It is not too late

As aforementioned, the day i leave for Penang is also D'Day for my semester 1 results!!!! Arghh!! I hope i get good marks as i feel rather confident. For those who would like something from Penang and KL can contact me.

Yes i would be using Air Asia. Everyone can fly.....Without excess luggage XD !!

Where Spring and Winter meets~

2008-12-05T20:29:00.000-08:00

Are you confused with the title?

Haha don't be. I am just promoting about the event tomorrow at the Spring. A group of us will be performing christmas songs and dances. Come and watch me dance and rock the ~~house~~ mall!

Venue: The Spring
Time: 7.30pm - 9++

Do come and support me!!!

If the dances are boring at least you can go shopping right??? hahaha~

Lately i cannot really update my blog as i am busy with piano lessons and theory. Practically i feel like i am in music school. Everyday it is just me and my piano. I feel kinda overwhelm as i practiced my Grade 5 pieces extremely well and i just got "promoted" to Grade 6 in just ONE WEEK.People say i am literally crazy! Now i have to do all the harmonic and melodic minor scales which are a bum. Sigh~ Oh well, to improve myself!!!

By the way, someone gae my dad an erhu. So now i am playing it too! Way cool!!

Battle of the Yogis

2008-12-03T04:57:00.000-08:00

I found an interesting article about yoga which is currently a heated debate in Malaysia. It is a very timely post especially for Christians.

On Nov. 22, the National Fatwa Council (NFC) issued an edict that yoga is haram (prohibited) for Muslims. Earlier on, Prof. Zakaria Stapa of the Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia’s Islamic Studies Centre had remarked that practising yoga could deviate Muslims from their faith. His statement drew negative reactions from yoga instructors and students.

The president of the Malaysia Yoga Society lamented the misunderstanding and said that Malaysian yoga was different from the practices in India which incorporated religion and spirituality. It was “more of a treatment modality” (TheSun, 23/11/08)

Many view yoga as a form of exercise to strengthen and improve their muscles and breathing as well as to relax their mind, thus keeping them good health. But why has it become such a big issue to certain religious groups? The bone of contention seems to be the meditation techniques – or “curbing the mind” as some call it. While it has been argued that these techniques are scientifically proven to improve one’s health and have nothing to do with religion, yogis – practitioners of yoga who have reached an advanced spiritual state – think otherwise. They are adamant that yoga, regardless of how it is branded, is Hinduism.

Within the Christian community, yoga too has been a controversial subject – some have reservations while others see nothing wrong as long as those who practise do not deviate from Christian faith. Rev. Dr Herman Shastri, the General Secretary of the Malaysian Council of Churches, opined that it was all right so long as Christians do not pray “to other Gods while practising yoga” (The Star, 31/10/08). However, some Christians disagree, and like the yogis, they firmly believe that yoga cannot be separated from its Hindu roots even if one takes away the spiritual underpinning and practises only the physical exercises.

Still others hold that yoga can surely be redeemed for God’s good purposes because our God is a redemptive God. A growing interest in Christian Yoga was thus developed, particularly in America, replacing Hindu spirituality and philosophy with Christian spirituality and theories. Such concept, nonetheless, did not go down well with certain groups.

The American Hindu Foundation, in its response to an article “Stretching for Jesus” featured in Time magazine (25 Aug. 2005), commented, “Hindu Americans are rightfully outraged by the brazen appropriation of one of their vibrant faith’s most lasting contributions to this country’s health, well-being and popular culture.” It called Christian Yoga an act of “intellectual property theft” and accused evangelical Christians of proselytising and converting Hindus in the guise of Christianised Hindu practices. Some Christians who formerly practised yoga think that Christian Yoga is an oxymoron.

In actual fact, Christian yoga, according to Dr Ng Kam Weng, director of Kairos Research Centre, fails to understand how yoga meditative exercises (especially the breathing techniques and the mantra chanting) work to disrupt our mental function. Change of name does not change the process, he says.

Yoga is an ancient practice that originated from India. The goal of the practitioners is to achieve oneness or union with the Absolute through physical and mental disciplines. Dr Ng emphasises that one must keep in mind the historical connection between yoga and Hinduism and how such practices are traditionally integrated with its own philosophy and spiritual worldview. The physical exercises are merely initial steps to prepare oneself to become more attuned to a higher reality.

Perhaps the question for many Christians would be: Is it possible to separate the physical exercise from the spiritual aspect?

“In theory it is possible for Christians to separate the physical exercises from the spiritual exercises. I have in mind Christians who just want to try out some postures to stretch their muscles when they exercise at home. Others who are more serious may try out *Pilates. However, those who take yoga seriously will soon find that yoga is offered as a package deal. Meditation is the main ingredient to achieve spiritual enlightenment. In other words, serious yoga instructors do not separate the form from the substance,” Dr Ng explains.

He also clarifies the difference between Christian and yoga meditation. The former carries a positive function as meditating on the glory of God and His manifold works inspire the Christian to praise and love God; it is relationship and content oriented. The latter, in contrast, has a negative function; it deliberately empties the mind of rational thought processes and eventually leads to the dissolution of ego or the inner self. Dr Ng cautions that Christians should be wary of such exercises in dissociating the mind from its normal function since this may leave one vulnerable to external spiritual influence.

Some may have reportedly found peace with yoga meditation, but others have developed mental dysfunction, e.g. hallucination, outburst of uncontrollable energies through the body and emotional trauma. According to renowned psychoanalyst Carl Jung, “The deliberately-induced psychotic state, which in certain unstable individuals might easily lead to a real psychosis, is a danger that needs to be taken very seriously indeed.”

Dr Ng urges Christians, who are practising yoga or who are thinking of taking it up, to seriously consider their motive for doing so. If it is merely for physical exercises, there are other alternatives; if it is for meditation, we need to seriously consider the basis of yoga meditation as it is traditionally practised.

“Why would I hitch my Christian faith to a process which might render myself vulnerable to influence from deceptive spiritual forces?” he asks.

While yoga practices are culturally not wrong, Christians are encouraged to exercise spiritual discernment in making their choices.

*Pilates (pĭ-lä’tēz) – A system of exercises that promote the strengthening of the body, often using specialised equipment. Named after Joseph Pilates (1880–1967), German-born American physical fitness instructor who developed the system. – The American Heritage® Dictionary

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taken from The Agora

Camp Promo Video~

2008-11-30T23:51:00.001-08:00

Here's the camp promo :

A professionally well-done video by the Tan Brothers. Haha. Do come and join us!

Embacy Youth Camp!

2008-11-29T01:52:00.000-08:00

The time is nearing once again~ The Annual Embacy[Emmanuel Baptist Youth] Youth Camp!
This time we have a special speaker, Pastor Daniel from Cornerstone Community Church of Singapore to share God's Word. For all the christians and non-christians[who wanna know more about God] alike should come and attend the camp. The fee is cheap which is only RM 100[subsidise already] which is inclusive of a 3D2N stay at Santubong resort, food, transport to the resort, materials not to mention the receiving of God's word, new friends and fellowship plus all kinds of fun. Trust me, you would not regret the time and money spent here.

Ask the other previous camp attendees, most of them enjoyed the time in the camp. Besides that, get the chance to hear many great testimonies!

Here's the camp form:

If you would like to know more, please leave a message at the tag box and i will try to reply A.S.A.P. For those who wants to join, do leave a message and i'll contanct you.

P/S If you have some problems attending the camp such as lack of monetary funds and transportation BUT you wanna join, do contact me so that i can enquire about these matters for you.